Hi! I just wanted to hop on here and say that I could’ve written the exact same thing as you last year. I lived alone and I felt exactly the same in the hospital. I respect all the people giving you advice to stick it out and seek professional help. They are probably right, but I think you know in your heart whether this is true depression or what I think of as situational depression (only caused by the job). If it truly is situational, get out now. Go to outpatient now. Don’t wait because nothing is more important than your mental health. Start putting in a bunch of applications and plotting your escape. I instantly felt better the second I quit. Getting out of the hospital environment changed my life. You can escape, this isn’t forever. Feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to and we can figure it out together.