Snr1003

I'm waiting to hear if I got this new job I applied to closer to home. I'm afraid to put in my notice without a job lined up! I've already had a face to face interview with the manager and charge nurses and today I have a phone interview with the recruiter. Not sure why in that order.

This whole situation just sucks. I'm back in the recovery for my two weeks and I'm just not looking forward to it. It sucks feeling super anxious to even go into work. I'm hoping I hear soon whether I got the job I applied to closer to home. The thought of putting in my notice is freaking me out too. I know that the manager is going to be pissed. She doesn't want to lose me to the hospital, she just wants to move me back to my old area I think. I'm trying to prepare myself. Since I'm on "orientation" she might just tell me just to leave.

I don't really think it would do anything. My husband thought I should speak to them so that they know my side of the story. At this point I just want to leave.

I posted awhile ago about the situation I'm in at my new job. I transferred from one dept to another under the same director and manager. Long story short, I was hired for PACU and made the move from outpatient services a few weeks ago. I have previous experience in ICU and PACU, but it's been about 4 years. The patients here are a lot sicker and complex than what I'm used to. From day one I was told orientation was 3 days. I brought up my concerns that this wasn't enough time and they said 3 weeks. I was unfamiliar with charting in this new area, plus taking care of these critical patients after not having been in the area for awhile. I was brought into the office my second week. Asking too many questions, being unsure of myself and being slow. My preceptor from the first week went on vacation and I was hooked up with the charge nurses who were already busy doing other things. I think they just expected me to jump right in and be at their level and unfortunately I wasn't meeting their expectations. I was asked by my manager if my experience on my resume was even true. Needless to say, I have been crushed and mad. I was asked if I wanted to go to the ICU for a few weeks as a refresher and I agreed. I got the impression that they thought me going back to the ICU might be better for me. I spent two weeks in ICU. It helped me feel more comfortable, but still wasn't exposed to the kind of cases that I would need in recovery. Last week I was brought back into the office and told I shouldn't apply for ICU because even the ICU manager felt I wasn't up to snuff and would need to start all over with ICU training which he doesn't want to do. Funny thing is.....I never even spoke to him and the preceptor I was with for 2 weeks said she hadn't even spoken to him about me. She in fact told me she was going to write him and give me a great review. At this same meeting I was told that after this week in ICU I was going to get 2 more weeks in recovery and after that I would have to find a job back where I used to work in outpatient if something opens up (if I can't hack it). I have since applied to other jobs. I just have a feeling that I'm getting pushed out. My husband thinks I need to go and speak to HR. I'm kind of tip toeing around until I get another job, but this is causing me so much anxiety. I know I'm a good nurse, and it's killing me to hear that my manager and supposedly this other manager think I'm unexperienced. The nurses I was working with in the icu were asking me if I was going to apply for a job with them and I'm on the verge of tears because I was told by my manager not to bother. I can't even believe I'm in this situation. I have been a nurse for 14 years. I'm technically still on orientation so if I give my notice she might say just to leave. I don't know. I'm waiting to hear if I've gotten this new job before I do anything. Would you go to HR?

I was curious how your job experience turned out! I am interviewing for a Cath Lab pre/post position!!

I had another bad day. This area is just over my head. I feel like such a failure. I just don't know this stuff and it makes me unsafe. I get it. I guess I just have to look for another job. I got pulled into the managers office and she said that while I'm shadowing in the icu I should consider working there. I guess I'll be putting in applications although I don't think I want to stay at this hospital

They said since I had the experience it should only take me 3 days. I still don't think it was fair as it's been some time since I have even done that kind of nursing.

I moved out of state and took a job in Ambulatory care. I worked there for a year, but wanted to get back into more critical care so when a job opened I went back to PACU. It's been a tough transition. I was initially told my orientation would be 3 days. I said that needed more than that. This PACU happens to be more acute cases and patients than I was used to. I was brought into the manager's office on my second week and asked if my experience on my resume was "even true". I was crushed. I tried to explain that my experience in icu/PACU was different than here and that I wasn't getting the best orientation. I was kind of getting a "sink or swim" approach and it was making me even more flustered. I was told that I had 2 more weeks. Mind you I have been a nurse for 14 years and I feel like a new nurse all over again. At our last meeting I was asked if I wanted to go back to the icu for a few weeks to get a refresher since it's been awhile since I was in icu/PACU. Of course I said sure, but in the same meeting I was told I was too slow, keeping patients too long, and only taking one patient at a time which isn't true (I'm almost ready to track my day to show my manager that I'm not as bad as they make me out to be). At this point I feel defeated and anxious to go to work. I will be on the unit tomorrow and then go to icu two days at the end of the week. I am really trying, but maybe I just won't be cut out for this area, especially when I feel like an outcast as it is. I decided to put some job applications out there because I'm not sure how this job will go. I'm also having a hard time respecting my manager when I was asked if my experience was even real. I'm just so disheartened. I did get a call today about a job working in a pre/post Cath procedures area and I'm thinking about talking to that manager because it would be a hospital much closer to home. Thank you for letting me vent. This whole ordeal has been causing me so much stress.