Barton82

So I am here wondering what to show to the BON when I go before them regarding my recovery? I was charged with a felony and have kept in close contact with the BON this past year and was informed that the BON in Nebraska doesn't differentiate between felonies and misdemeanors; what matters is what you do with the time during your suspension. Now I self-reported over two years ago. As we know BON moves slowly in their investigation so by the time I faced charges I was already over a year into recovery and considered in "full remission" by my outpatient drug and alcohol therapist. Since then I work at an addictions center for women and have cleaned up my life form the trauma I experienced after getting hooked on opiods following my preventative bilateral mastectomy (BRCA2 positive and never any issues with addiction in my life)...I have learned a lot. I am currently on probation with the state for my felony and that is going well. I am just wondering what I need to bring with me when I go before the BON. Any advice or insight would be very very helpful. Thanks!

Just here for advice. Not to be beat down. Diversion in the worse thing in nursing. I self reported. I diverted hydro and oxy on two separate occasions. The guilt of it overtook me and I self reported then contacted our states Licensee Assistance Program. In Nebraska. I honestly can't say what led me to divert or why and there are really no excuses. I've beaten myself up enough. I had a bilateral mastectomy a year ago. No issues with refilling my own medication after. I left my abusive ex spouse during that time as he was no support. I lost my sister to breast cancer at 23. She was my best friend. I went through an ugly custody battle. But what tipped it off was over school break for my kiddos my ex lost his job and uprooted them during his week with them. Without court approval or my knowledge and against court orders. I'd been suffering from depression and panic attacks knowing I have to take him back to court again. I have never had depression or panic attacks before and the feelings were intensely overwhelming. I diverted. I took the medication two separate times at home and it calmed me down and took away those panicked feelings. But the guilt of my action overtook me. I did my intake and cried the whole time. The counselor doesn't see my as a drug or alcohol abuser. She stated she felt like had come to a head for me and I didn't know how to cope. She isn't recommending random drug screens just counseling for me. She has submitted her report to the board of nursing. I don't know what will happen from there but I will certainly comply with everything. I have since gotten involved with a domestic violence shelter that offers some support group sessions and my primary physician has placed me on a low dose antidepressant which seems to be helping. As well as Xanax lowest dose prn. Panic attacks are overwhelming. It's just the fear of if my children are alright that or if they need me that causes these intense feelings of panic. Slowly they are becoming more manageable. I'm doing everything I can to stay the course. Nursing has been my life for almost a decade with nothing in my record. I'm afraid of what's going to happen to me. Adult protective services has filled out their report as well due to me self reporting. They are calling it neglect and theft. I'm so intensely ashamed but I wholly accept what I've done. I did not want to get to the point of being unsafe in the work place, with a monstrous addiction, or dead. I read all the horror stories about nurses, EMTs, physicians who are sucked in to addiction so quickly. I want my career in nursing still. It's my livelihood. Especially now that I have to go back to court again and hold my ex in contempt of court orders. I must say that life gets extremely overwhelming. I was doing fine through my mastectomy and rebuilding my life post divorce. But when I got the call from my 7 year old in tears saying they had moved and dad took them out of school and enrolled them elsewhere I couldn't function. I lost myself then. He moved them two hours away when we were sharing custody prior to his move. I'm fighting hard for them. But now I also have to deal with the board of nursing. I'm working on expunging my record with APS in the hopes that they will see I am complying with everything as well as being fully accountable for my actions. Any thoughts from nurses having gone through this? Any advice? Will I be able to stay in nursing? I just don't know anymore.