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Hello everyone! This topic is nothing new and I've gone through the forum reading similar threads to comfort myself. Now that I'm on the exact same boat, I need to get this off my chest. I work the night shift at a busy telemetry floor. I have 2 weeks left of orientation before I'm on my own. And just the thought of it makes my stomach turn. No more preceptor to validate my actions and to turn to when I have questions. I feel like I'm putting out fires instead of being in control. If you stop me in the middle of my running around and ask me about my patient, I feel like I can barely tell you anything. Most of the time I'm faking it- I put on this happy face of someone who knows what they're doing- and I have this nagging voice in my head telling me that it's only a matter of time before I'm found out. It only takes one concerned family member or observant patient to expose me for the fraud that I am. There are many things I still don't know. One of my worst fears is to get fired by my patient for being an incompetent nurse. I like what I do, but I am always filled with anxiety the day before my shift. I really, really want to be an excellent nurse. I know it takes time and experience, but I am longing for that day when I am more confident in what I'm doing and that I am actually looking forward to come to work. I'm determined to get though this, grow, and gain more experience. I just wish I didn't have all these negative thoughts and inhibitions

Thank you nurses for all the insight and advice! Thank you, I realize that I have too much free time in my hands. I'm considering signing up for the gym as well as finding another source of income on the side. But I really like the idea of volunteering too. He said he will try, which I believe he does. But once I am able to choose my own schedule, I might pick something that works well with his. That way I don't get all these crazy ideas. I trust my boyfriend, but not seeing enough of him can mess up my head sometimes. Thank you! Yes, it's something I tried to avoid, but a lot of my stress was being directed particularly towards my relationship. I felt bad that it turned me into the wicked witch of the west, and I had to constantly apologize to my boyfriend because of it. You are right, I've been cooped up in the world of nursing school and being a new grad nurse. I should learn to relax now and maybe enjoy life a little, to focus on me. That way I could be fulfilled, with or without my boyfriend. Yes, I should contemplate the future of our relationship. I've hinted at him many times that I couldn't live like this, always wondering where he is, what he is doing, and if he's coming home or not. Thank you for your sharing all that!

Hello fellow nurses! I have been working the night shift (3 nights, 7am-7pm) for a month now under a residency program. Though it hasn't been easy because I'm quite the insomniac, I find myself enjoying the work and wanting to be really good at it. I understand that it can take some time before fully adjusting to such a schedule, but I'm willing to stick it out. I live with my boyfriend whom I have been with for 2 years. He works in another city and often goes home to his mom's place over there. I usually see him 2 times a week. Ever since I started this job, I found myself feeling increasingly lonely out of work. I'm basically craving for human affection and feeling needy about my boyfriend's presence. We never go out anymore, and I understand his desire to hustle as he has kids. But having him around is the one thing that has brought me comfort in my whole nursing journey. His absence was easily overlooked due to the stress of being a full time nursing student. But now that I have 4 free nights, the longing is real. I've touched upon the subject a couple of times and I told him to please try to come home more often. I don't know if this is something that can be attributed to night shift depression. I don't really have much friends to hang out with, and I usually prefer staying home anyway. I've thought about maybe trying out new things and keeping myself busy, but if I were to be honest with myself, I just want a big hug from my boyfriend, I just want him here. Heck, I'd even take the snoring. I'm afraid the whole night shift situation has made me extra needy. It's okay that we don't go out anymore, it's okay that we don't go to vacations or anything like that. But I want him home more than 1-2 nights a week. I feel silly for sounding like a clingy girlfriend, but at the same time, I've been experiencing a wide range of emotions. I would appreciate your thoughts. Thank you!

Thanks for the update OBNurse829! :) They haven't given me a call yet, so I guess I am one of those NOT getting interviewed. On with the hunt! Good luck to all

I have been obsessively checking the status of my application every single day. Nothing has changed since I submitted it. (Sorry, this whole new grad job hunting business has thrown me into a rollercoaster of emotions )

Applied, haven't heard anything yet

I just logged in so it should be all good now I received my license in the mail today, which makes it 10 days after I took the test (just fyi for my fellow californians). I was expecting weeks and weeks of waiting.

Congratulations to everyone who passed!!! Time to celebrate! í ½í¸ To those who are uncertain/didn't pass, never give up you guys. There may be a little delay but YOU WILL GET THERE! Unfortunately, I'm still a newbie on this forum so I am not able to reply to private messages. Apologies for not hearing back from me.

That allnurses NCLEX study guide seemed to have a lot of good stuff in it too. Good luck! You can do this!

Sounds to me like you are more than ready to go!! I agree, those scores are excellent! You got this!!! Have a relaxing day prior to your exam. You are gonna do great! :)

Hi, if you go to https://www.breeze.ca.gov and click on license search, you can input your name and check if it's there. Also, if you log in to your Breeze account, your application status should no longer be pending. Instead, you will see your license number on the top left corner :)

UPDATE: I took the test January 2, my name posted on the board on January 4 morning. (I'm still in a state of shock but very, very grateful!). Just a tip for California test takers. I guess PVT is pretty accurate still. I went with Mark Klimek's audio plus UWorld. I have the LaCharity book which I barely got to touch (a shame since I had plenty of prioritization questions). For UWorld, I would advise familiarizing yourself with the diseases that are on there (s/s plus interventions). The isolations were also a big thing on mine. gladysfdrdeguzman Good luck on your test! You got this!!!

Hi everyone! Any January 2018 test takers? I took mine yesterday from 2pm-7pm. I'm pretty sure I bombed. I did not feel confident, had a headache halfway through, and walked out of there feeling defeated. It was the longest 5 hours of my life and I didn't mentally prepare for it enough. I got home, did the PVT 2 hours afer, got the good pop-up. Tried again this morning, still the good pop-up. But i fear that I wouldn't pass the BON's quality check. The waiting game is making me anxious, so I'm hoping to just let it all out and keep myself distracted. Cheers to everyone who passed! And for test takers, I couldn't emphasize it enough: go in there for a 260-item exam (I took this little tidbit for granted and ended up with a headache). Good luck!