Kittykeely

I have accessed occupational health again recently. My start time has been changed to 9am instead of 7am. And they have advised my employer to look at my anxiety as a disability rather than sickness. But other than that there isn't a lot that has been said. I preferred community in my training. I had my management plcement there but i still didnt fully enjoy it. I am on an acute ward I have been told by many that rehab may be my best bet. I have applied for jobs but have been turned down due to my sickness record so at the moment it looks like no other option but to quit my job :/

Thank you for your reply. This is it. I'm thinking all of our employers constantly tell us to out ourselves before our patients and I'm worried about these thoughts I'm having. I think that quitting may be the only option as no other nursing place will hire me due to my sickness record

It was but nothing like this. However, when I went to CBT they did say that it was work that was doing this to me so if I'm out of work I may feel better but then when I go back I may be in the exact same position. However, I do feel like a more set area that's less acute may help it's just my sickness record that's stopping me currently

Thank you for your quick reply. This is what I was thinking. I just don't want to be stuck not being able to get back into nursing when my mental health has improved

So I'm new here but needed to get this off my chest and wanted some advice. Hopefully people will get back to me ASAP. So I qualified in March and went straight onto a haemotology ward. I was diagnosed with anxiety got put on medication and went to CBT. I have seen occupational health at the hospital I work in and have done a stress at work test. However, I'm still anxious. It's been 6 months and I've been off a lot more than I've been in. I've had a stage 1 sickness meeting. I just feel like I can't do this anymore. I hate the hospital it's never been for me. I've tried to suck it up but I can't. I'm crying and having panic attacks and constantly being sick whether it be the night before work or in the morning. It's awful. I feel like I'm just letting every one down on the ward. I have only just gotten a preceptor. None of my paperwork has been filled out. I have applied for a job in community and got it however, they may be withdrawing the offer due to my sickness record. My ward manager has refused to sign me off on IVs as she believes this will cause me more stress. I have discussed with her and informed her I would rather just be signed off. However, she has still refused and has told all staff not to sign me off. I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't even make it into work. And when I do I'm being micromanaged, being told I'm not good enough or just genuinely feeling crap about myself because I'm waiting for someone to say something. I want to quit because I just can't do hospital nursing. However, my sickness record does not go in my favour and I have no hood references from my student days as all 3 of my placements tried to fail me and said I wasn't good enough. I have no idea how I qualified in the first place. I don't want to throw all of my hard work away but at the same time I just can't even get to work and I hate every second. It's making me so depressed to the point where when I'm in my car I wish someone would just crash into me so I don't have to go. It's not normal. Any advice would be appreciated. Anyone been in the same situation or left nursing altogether? Anyone left and regretted it? How hard is it to get back in? Thanks in advance.