Congrats on finishing up your monitoring program. I have been clean since '96 (hard to believe it's been over 20 years!). I am a believer in "meeting makers make it." I go to no less than 2 or 3 meetings a week (NA) and am involved in some form of service, always. I am a CNRN (Certified Neuroscience RN) and currently getting my PhD in Nursing with a thesis topic of the Neurobiology of addiction and it's impact on the nursing profession. I have learned a great deal about rewiring and neurogenesis/neuroplasticity with meeting attendance, step writing, prayer/meditation and so on. What I do know is...5 years is just the beginning, not the conclusion. Whether it is good news or bad news, the reality is we have brains that just don't make enough Dopamine. Using makes that worse, recovery makes that better. Good luck and big cyber hugs to you! :) Suzanne