Pass or Fail I know who's in control

Okay everyone, I took my NCLEX yesterday. Backstory is I took it the first time and failed with 75 questions. I took some time off to be sad and then started reviewing again with UWorld, LaCharity, and Kaplan. I arrived to the city of the testing location the night before and stayed over night because my test was going to be at 8am and it is about an hour and a half drive from my house. I felt relatively calm the night before and even the morning of when I woke up. I just tried my best to keep a positive attitude about the test.

After signing in and beginning my test I paused maybe twice to remind myself to take my time, calm down, and say a quick prayer. I turned off my question counter before the test started to ease my anxiety some, but out of curiosity checked it after about an hour and a half and sure enough I was on 71. I turned it back off, took a deep breath and kept going. Next thing I know I get an all white screen saying the next portion of the test is research questions and would not affect my score, so sure enough I realize I was done at 75 questions again. Slightly upset (more bummed out, nothing like I was the first time) I answered maybe three of the research questions before I just started clicking random answers and hitting next. This caused me to answer like 15 questions in about 15 seconds. Then I did the little evaluation thing at the end and that was it. I checked out and told my fiance that I felt this test was harder than the last.

Guys and Gals I honestly believe I had 30-40 SATA and there were runs of them. The rest were multiple choice, a few priority and one drag/drop. My fiance wanted to try the PVT trick, but I just wanted to hold off for a little longer because I didn't want to see the card declined message just yet. Well about 45 mins into the drive home I tried it and got the Results on hold popup (Most likely due to the way I answered the research questions). It made me feel slightly better but overall I have been feeling as could be expected. Much calmer than last time though.

I spoke with my grandparents about how I was feeling about the situation and my grandfather told me that as long I was trusted in the lord and lived right by him as he expected I have, then anything I choose to do will prosper. That really hit me deep and I realized that just because I did not pass it the first time, or maybe not even this time only means that it is not the Lord's plan yet and that I need not to lean on my own understanding. That has brought me immense peace, and at times I would think "what if I really didn't pass though?" Then I heard a voice that said "Ye of little faith." I realized yet again and prayed to the Lord that I would just put it all in his hands and whatever happened would happen, that he knows what's in my heart and how much I want this.

Fast forward to about an hour ago, I tried the PVT again and I got the good popup now. So that has me feeling more optimistic but of course I know it's not definite and I will not let myself feel as such until I see the quick results in the morning. The point is that as much as I hope to see "Pass" tomorrow, if I failed I will simply study again and try again because the Lord has promised me that he would never leave nor forsake me and that as long as I love and believe in him anything that I do will prosper. I know not everyone on here is religious, or may be of different religions. I just wanted to share my story thus far.

I will update everyone as soon as I see the results in the morning!!