Need help...ready to quit.

I think before you make any big decisions about your job and your future you need to consider being evaluated for depression. The symptoms you are describing could be attributed to a diagnosis of depression and while it could be situational it also could be more chronic. It may be difficult for you to figure out which came first, the depression making you hate your career or your career making you depressed. If I am off the mark please forgive me but that was the sense I got when reading your post.

Afteryou consider having your health checked, how about looking for another job?

Nights arn't for everone. Being the only RN is a huge responsibility; wold you b more comfortable workin somewhere yu would at least have a peer to double check your concerns?

I know there are times I still want to bounce an idea or iddue off another nurse just to ge another perspective.

Good luck with whatever choice you make- but always remember you have options.

May baby,

I feel the same way as you do. Miserable. I got offered a phenomenal job in CA BUT iT IS NIGHTS

and nights, sorry are not for everyone, and for those that are used to days are carcinogenic

thanks

:loveya:keep your chin up and try Tuscarawas County OH

we went to see DRACULA there outdoor drama and were impressed with the surrounding beauty. Plus they have Kent State University there with lots of other options in nursing and other things too.

Check it out its close to Cleveleland and cheap living.

There are so many options in nursing. Don't give up. Keep looking for your place and you will find it. Nursing is tough work- emotionally and physically.

Try to find just one positive thing that you did everyday that makes you a good nurse. I used to do this as I was having similar symptoms. I felt like I could never do things well or right because I was so busy..

Then I started to pay attention- maybe I spent an extra minute talking to a patient or provided an extra measure of comfort, put other things on hold to sit with a dying patient who was alone. I would think of that ONE thing that made me a good nurse and a good person at the end of every shift and even if the whole night had been a shambles I could feel proud that I was someone who cared- against the odds.

This helped me find the strength to keep it up. I knew in my heart that because I was there and I did something good I made a difference- even if it was just in a small way.

sometime people need a break.... as my instructor say it... you also need to take care of yourself...