need help here, i need your advice

[pilya00]

to give you some history about myself, i graduated from bsn in the philippines in april 2007 and two weeks after that i went here to be with my husband that's why i have no healthcare experience beside the clinical rotations as a student. then after 4 months i got pregnant with our first baby :yeah:during that time i processed my papers to get the nclex rn but unfortunately the processing went too long , it took a year to be completed. i got my ATT by August and i scheduled my nclex exam on october '08 so i'd have the time to review because i am busy with my new baby and just got a job (not nursing related). luckily i passed, then i thought it's going to be easy to find a job becuase i now have the license. 4 months has passed and still can't find a job. i applied to almost every hospital/nursing homes here in long island & as well as to manhattan area just to get my feet wet. i had 2 interviews & it was promising, the asst. DON told me to be patient & need to wait a month because i need to file for civil service exam to determine my title & salary (that was jan). today i called because its almost a month next week, then he told me they don't have a position for me right now that i have to understand because of the budget cut of NY and they are still waiting for the GO signal from ALbany.:angryfire at first they should have at least gave a notice, right? so that i can move on. i am so disappointed because i thought its my chance, they took the requirements (copy of registration,license,physical,immunizations, etc..) but after 3 weeks they turned me down. the next interview i had was also promising, the assistant DON told me that she would definitely get me on board when the position becomes available this feb, because the next orientation is first week of march. i called to today to check the status of my application, then the HR told me that it depends to the director of nursing if they wanna hire me & they will contact me if that happens. so today i am so sad, i cried it out to let go the bad feeling. i feel guilty as well because i become irritable with my baby when she cried. what do you think should i do? do i need to take the rn refresher to be more marketable? i really don't know what to do right now. i plan to take professional skills workshop (wound care, resp. care, etc..), but would that help me? or should i take LPN board exam so i can apply as LPN just to get started as a nurse. i really wanted to be a nurse since i was a child. thanks in advance for your advice.