Nclex-RN

Hello AN!! I just wanted to vent about my nclex journey thus far. First off let me say that this forum is helping me to build the confidence I need just knowing that there are people who share the same struggle as me and it's amazing. I am on here everyday just reading and responding to other people. I deleted Facebook when I started getting serious about studying so this is pretty much my replacement. Anyway, I have taken Nclex two times already ( which is not something I admitted to many people) I felt ashamed, sad, angry etc.. But I have finally decided to stop feeling sorry for myself. I have already accomplished so much and I will accomplish this as well. First time around I had 75 questions automatic fail. I only studied using kaplan and only used the q trainers and I didn't even complete all of them. I jumped around and the ones I did, I only read rationales for my wrong answers. Needless to say, I did not fully understand how I should study. The second time around I said I would really focus, I started to understand what I needed to do in order to pass this thing. I used the q trainers again and completed them, Looking up everything that wasn't familiar to me or I didn't understand ,read all rationales including right and wrong answers BUT I did not get through all of q7 rationales. I used the lippincott q & a book but only reviewed Ob, I used lippincott Alternative format questions book (not entirely) and kaplan strategies book . This book was the only one I completed, all the content inside as well as every single question. I also read the 35 pg study guide but one time was not enough. This all gave me a better understanding but I still did not pass, I ended the test with 265 questions so I did get somewhere. I now know I need to finish what I started. I started my kaplan review from the beginning , And I'm going to do everything in its entirety. I'm going through the content videos and will do the q trainers over and also complete the qbank. I am almost done with the alternative format book, I purchased lacharity PDA because I had tons of priority questions last time and I know I could use the help. I made a list of things I will complete before I test again. I know I will be successful this time around and I am glad to finally be able to refocus and put the work in that I need to finally put this test behind me. Thank you sooo much to anyone that took the time out to read this long post ! And good luck to all of you in your future endeavors