at a loss as to what i can do... (CSULA)

[Derpchan]

i'm at a loss as to what i can do, due to a combination of factors that only now i have become aware of i feel like i've lost my chance of my dream to be an RN. I'll try not turn my post into a blog, but my head is just such a mess i don't even know what to think.

I started my freshman year at cal state LA as a pre-nursing; i was extremely depressed due to my inability to go to UC Irvine because of the costs, and there was a lot of mean words exchanged between me and my parents that only worsened my state of mind.

Due to the general financial difficulty in my family, i was unable to live closer to school and was forced to commute by bus; a trip to/back from school averaged 4 hours.

The mixture of my poor state of mind and attitude lead me to do fairly poorly in my freshman and sophomore years. This was the same time i took some of my Pre-reqs, a few of which i failed and had to retake. The other classes where i didn't fail i ended up only receiving a C+ or a C.

I never learned about counselors and program coordinators, nor did i have any friends; the long commute made it nigh impossible to attend clubs or any social event and make friends. I just blindly took classes and messed up without even realizing what it was doing to my future.

(one such mess up was when in desperation of getting a biology 200 class which was a nursing pre-req, i somehow manage to get added to the biology 200B class, which has a 200A per-requisite. Thinking to myself that i can somehow "beat the system" i took the class regardless, and was painfully punished with a C+)

It took me a better part of those 2 years to get myself out of the rut; when i "woke up", i was in academic probation, and skipping quarters. It felt like waking up from a coma, only to find you have cancer.

My grades have improved a lot now, i changed my major to kinesiology, specializing on therapeutic and rehabilitating exercise and my GPA went up from a 1.9 to a 3.2. I'm working very hard in all my classes getting mostly A's and a few occasional B. Yet i just can't forgive myself for ruining my chances to into nursing.

Is there anything at all i can do to reach my dream as an RN? There are no mountain i'm not willing to climb for my dream.

i managed to get on my TEAS 84% percentile on my reading and 83% on my writing.

here are my pre-req scores.

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[TD=width: 217]Chem 151[/TD]

[TD=width: 86]B+[/TD]

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[TD]Biol 200A[/TD]

[TD]A-[/TD]

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[TR]

[TD]Biol 200B[/TD]

[TD]C+[/TD]

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[TR]

[TD]Engl 101[/TD]

[TD]A-[/TD]

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[TR]

[TD]Comm 150[/TD]

[TD]C

[/TD]

[/TR]

[TR]

[TD]Phil 160

[/TD]

[TD]C+

[/TD]

[/TR]

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i don't think i can live with myself if i don't give it my all.

[OhWow]

I was always told long as your math and sciences were high you would be ok. Plus I believe that you are able to retake one science class over even if you passed it. But my mom always says you always have to at least try. The worst they can do is tell you no. But at least you have a solid no and not a what if.

[HouTx, BSN, MSN, EdD]

Blaming your poor results on extraneous factors ... parents, commute, lack of friends, etc.... won't get you anywhere but stuck in a long-term pity party. Take ownership for your performance. It's beyond ridiculous to "exchange mean words" with your parents - presumably because they can't finance your education. BTW, increased 'friends' at college are very frequently a contributing factor to poor grades because of the misaligned priorities (party > study)... so you may have dodged a bullet there.

Your improving GPA is evidence that you are starting to exert more effort & take greater responsibility - that's great! It's a hard slog - and nursing school is MUCH harder than any pre-req class. Keep your eyes on the goal. Best wishes for continued success.

[lupeo1792]

You might not want to hear this and I didn't either when I was first told this but you could try going to a city/community college and getting your ADN then doing a bridge program to a university for your BSN.

It takes about 3.5 years total and is much less competitive!

[NinjaKimura]

Hi, is anyone applying for Fall of 2015? If so please comment at https://allnurses.com/california-nursing/csula-fall-2015-a-955255.html to see stats and progress! Thanks!