Derpchan

i'm at a loss as to what i can do, due to a combination of factors that only now i have become aware of i feel like i've lost my chance of my dream to be an RN. I'll try not turn my post into a blog, but my head is just such a mess i don't even know what to think. I started my freshman year at cal state LA as a pre-nursing; i was extremely depressed due to my inability to go to UC Irvine because of the costs, and there was a lot of mean words exchanged between me and my parents that only worsened my state of mind. Due to the general financial difficulty in my family, i was unable to live closer to school and was forced to commute by bus; a trip to/back from school averaged 4 hours. The mixture of my poor state of mind and attitude lead me to do fairly poorly in my freshman and sophomore years. This was the same time i took some of my Pre-reqs, a few of which i failed and had to retake. The other classes where i didn't fail i ended up only receiving a C+ or a C. I never learned about counselors and program coordinators, nor did i have any friends; the long commute made it nigh impossible to attend clubs or any social event and make friends. I just blindly took classes and messed up without even realizing what it was doing to my future. (one such mess up was when in desperation of getting a biology 200 class which was a nursing pre-req, i somehow manage to get added to the biology 200B class, which has a 200A per-requisite. Thinking to myself that i can somehow "beat the system" i took the class regardless, and was painfully punished with a C+) It took me a better part of those 2 years to get myself out of the rut; when i "woke up", i was in academic probation, and skipping quarters. It felt like waking up from a coma, only to find you have cancer. My grades have improved a lot now, i changed my major to kinesiology, specializing on therapeutic and rehabilitating exercise and my GPA went up from a 1.9 to a 3.2. I'm working very hard in all my classes getting mostly A's and a few occasional B. Yet i just can't forgive myself for ruining my chances to into nursing. Is there anything at all i can do to reach my dream as an RN? There are no mountain i'm not willing to climb for my dream. i managed to get on my TEAS 84% percentile on my reading and 83% on my writing. here are my pre-req scores. [TABLE] [TR] [TD=width: 217]Chem 151[/TD] [TD=width: 86]B+[/TD] [/TR] [TR] [TD]Biol 200A[/TD] [TD]A-[/TD] [/TR] [TR] [TD]Biol 200B[/TD] [TD]C+[/TD] [/TR] [TR] [TD]Engl 101[/TD] [TD]A-[/TD] [/TR] [TR] [TD]Comm 150[/TD] [TD]C [/TD] [/TR] [TR] [TD]Phil 160 [/TD] [TD]C+ [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE] i don't think i can live with myself if i don't give it my all.