I am a married 35 year old mother of 3 beautiful children aged 4, 7 and 18. I am beginning full time nursing school this week and I just feel like I need a little support here. I always go to my sisters for support but in this case I don't think any of them can really relate. I will be working part time also (two evenings and every other weekend).
I have tried to prepare my family for this but quickly realize they are so incredibly dependent on me. Even my husband pouts for attention sometimes. It is also my sons senior year and he will be joining the army just days after graduation. He is involved in football and wrestling and he is probably the easiest person in the entire family to satisfy so he understands that I wont be at as many games as he may like.
I have wanted to be a nurse my whole life but the universe had a way of making that impossible for so long. Right now in my life I feel I am at a do or die point! I am ready to sacrifice my all to get what I want and what my family needs. Even with me working full time (as a patient care tech) with bonus shifts we were just brushing by financially. I am not only cutting the income to the family but I am adding the cost of full time daycare to the household budget. This is why I decided to remain part time at work but I don't think my family realizes what that means.
This is my last day with no homework or studying, my last day to relax with my family and I cant seem to do it because my mind keeps running. I just feel like the weight of the world is on me and the overwhelming feeling that EVERYONE needs me! My husband, my son, my daughters, my friends, my family I just feel like they just don't get it they think I am overexaggerating when I say they need to learn to live without me for awhile. Just today I have been for lack of a better word harassed for attention. Obviously my kids and husband will be priority but my work called they need help they are desperate then my best friend she wants to hang out and bbq. I did say HELL NO to both my work and friend but I feel so bad about it I guess it will get better. I know I need to use today to get my week in order and that means I need to stay home and focus on just that but its so hard. I just want to know if there are moms out there that can suggest things for me to get over this constant guilt. Oh and I'd love to hear that I am not crazy for wanting and expecting all this to turn out great.
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I am a married 35 year old mother of 3 beautiful children aged 4, 7 and 18. I am beginning full time nursing school this week and I just feel like I need a little support here. I always go to my sisters for support but in this case I don't think any of them can really relate. I will be working part time also (two evenings and every other weekend).
I have tried to prepare my family for this but quickly realize they are so incredibly dependent on me. Even my husband pouts for attention sometimes. It is also my sons senior year and he will be joining the army just days after graduation. He is involved in football and wrestling and he is probably the easiest person in the entire family to satisfy so he understands that I wont be at as many games as he may like.
I have wanted to be a nurse my whole life but the universe had a way of making that impossible for so long. Right now in my life I feel I am at a do or die point! I am ready to sacrifice my all to get what I want and what my family needs. Even with me working full time (as a patient care tech) with bonus shifts we were just brushing by financially. I am not only cutting the income to the family but I am adding the cost of full time daycare to the household budget. This is why I decided to remain part time at work but I don't think my family realizes what that means.
This is my last day with no homework or studying, my last day to relax with my family and I cant seem to do it because my mind keeps running. I just feel like the weight of the world is on me and the overwhelming feeling that EVERYONE needs me! My husband, my son, my daughters, my friends, my family I just feel like they just don't get it they think I am overexaggerating when I say they need to learn to live without me for awhile. Just today I have been for lack of a better word harassed for attention. Obviously my kids and husband will be priority but my work called they need help they are desperate then my best friend she wants to hang out and bbq. I did say HELL NO to both my work and friend but I feel so bad about it I guess it will get better. I know I need to use today to get my week in order and that means I need to stay home and focus on just that but its so hard. I just want to know if there are moms out there that can suggest things for me to get over this constant guilt. Oh and I'd love to hear that I am not crazy for wanting and expecting all this to turn out great.