so jacel?

JacelRN, BSN, RN · Oct 5, 2003

Hello Rena,

First off you are very sweet to think of a me, and to all those who prayed for me thank you.

I did not pass.

Needless to say, I am shocked, angry, terrified to think of working this hard a third time, and devastated that after 4 years of nursing school, I am being put through this torture.

I have no way of thinking this through. My first attempt I had 188 and failed, this time I had 75 which means I went BACKWARDS! How can that be after 3 long months of study, 2500 questions answered and an unwaivering confidence I finally built up again? I realize again, no one has these answers but God, but I am reaching out to those who can offer any comfort.

I am lost.

Thank you,

Jacel311

Chrislynn2003 · Oct 5, 2003

Jacel, I am very sorry. Just wanted to let you know that if you need anything from your friends at allnurses, that i am here. So sorry.

Christine

jnette, ASN, EMT-I · Oct 5, 2003

Originally posted by Chrislynn2003
Jacel, I am very sorry. Just wanted to let you know that if you need anything from your friends at allnurses, that i am here. So sorry.

Christine

Please add me to the list. I, too, send you warm, comforting hugs. How devastated you must be right now. Oh, and how my heart aches for you. Please take some quality time to yourself for awhile, and KNOW that you have what it takes to be a great nurse.

You CAN, and you WILL slay this monster ! He will NOT stand between you and your dream or your career. He will NOT devour your selfesteem, nor your efforts and financial investments... he will NOT.

Take your time and reenergize by pampering yourself and treating yourself to some very special and much deserved Jacel time. Then when refreshed, look this monster in the eye and DO NOT FEAR him !!! You ARE bigger than he, and smarter than he.

You WILL prevail.

We are all right here behind you to catch you as you stumble, to prop you back up on your feet, to hand you emotional/spiritual drink and nourishment...and to cheer you on. But the sword lies in YOUR hand... wield it once again. :kiss

JacelRN, BSN, RN · Oct 5, 2003

To my friends,

I knew you would write! I was hoping for it. I cried when I read your replies, you both touched me so much...it was what I needed.

Well, I faced my first monster today. I went to the hospital I work at because my dad just had open heart surgery and I hadn't been able to visit him since Friday. I watched all the nurses there caring for my dad and felt all the more upset. But when I walked out of the hospital I realized that instead of hiding in depression under the bed covers, I had gotten out into the sunshine and faced my biggest fears...facing my family and my workplace all in one setting.

I know this too shall pass and I will wield the sword again Jnette (you must write poetry =) but I will be taking a very well advised break from work and study to just have time for me. Fortunately I have a wonderful husband who will take care of me in the meantime and great friends here I can turn to. I just hope that in the future I can return the favor to each of you!

Thanks again so very much to Rena, Christine and Jnette. You all are special people in my heart! And to those who are in similar paths, write me, I will respond.

God Bless,

Jacel

jnette, ASN, EMT-I · Oct 5, 2003

Jacel, I commend you for having the courage to visit the hospital and to be strong enought to put aside your own disappointment and be with your dad (I do wish him a complete and speedy recovery !) when I'm sure deep down you would have preferred to sit at home on the pitypot. GOOD FOR YOU ! :)

And seeing those nurses hustling about doing what they do so well surely must have been a knife in your heart. Yet it is now important to use that pain as a motivater... get back on the horse and RIDE !!! ( in due time, of course )

Please do stay around and continue to utilize the BB and take what you need from it and share with us as well... don't be a stranger, ok?

Big hugs again... keep the faith ! You CAN do this !

Rena RN 2003, RN · Oct 6, 2003

jace, check your pm box please. :)

warhawk · Oct 7, 2003

Jacel,

Just writing 2 say that I'm very sorry that U "unpassed" the NCLEX. Listen 2 the great advice from the above responses.

Remember that we R are here 4 U. I will B praying 4 U and if U need any advice, tips, or even just 2 vent... feel free 2 PM me anytime.

((((((((((((((((((((Jacel)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Much care,

Warhawk

RN-PA, RN · Oct 7, 2003

I'm also sorry for you, and all you've been through, jacel, and can only imagine all you've been feeling. I'm glad you have a great support system of family and friends and I commend you for going back to the hospital. That took a lot of strength and courage. I wanted to encourage you by saying a number of GN's have failed their boards on the unit where I work. One fellow took the boards 3 times and finally passed. He's now an ICU RN. Please hang in there and try not to be too hard on yourself while you take this much-deserved break. God is with you and He will see you through. :kiss