I'm in a 12 mo accelerated BSN that started in May and honestly I feel like Ive fallen into a deep depression lately. I hate clinical, I cry every night and I just don't want to be here. There's a ton of other factors that go into this too, I'm just lonely, I'm from NYC and am going to Binghamton University just to save money and I absolutely hate it up here. The hospitals are smaller than what I'm used to, the patient care is subpar to what I'm used to (I was an aide for 3 years at a hospital in NYC). I'm lonely. I haven't made any real friends up here that I can confide in or talk to. And I know I'm going to get chewed out when I say this and I'm ready for it, but as this program has gone on I realized I don't want to be a nurse, I want to be a medical doctor. I'm so much more interested in the medical aspect of things and I just don't care about nursing diagnoses and interventions. I copy my care plans from books and google. I just am here because I took out loans feel like I have to be. I'm 30 years old and thought I wanted to be a nurse but I don't. I need encouragement because I really feel like I'm falling apart. Thanks.
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Hi all,
I'm in a 12 mo accelerated BSN that started in May and honestly I feel like Ive fallen into a deep depression lately. I hate clinical, I cry every night and I just don't want to be here. There's a ton of other factors that go into this too, I'm just lonely, I'm from NYC and am going to Binghamton University just to save money and I absolutely hate it up here. The hospitals are smaller than what I'm used to, the patient care is subpar to what I'm used to (I was an aide for 3 years at a hospital in NYC). I'm lonely. I haven't made any real friends up here that I can confide in or talk to. And I know I'm going to get chewed out when I say this and I'm ready for it, but as this program has gone on I realized I don't want to be a nurse, I want to be a medical doctor. I'm so much more interested in the medical aspect of things and I just don't care about nursing diagnoses and interventions. I copy my care plans from books and google. I just am here because I took out loans feel like I have to be. I'm 30 years old and thought I wanted to be a nurse but I don't. I need encouragement because I really feel like I'm falling apart. Thanks.