Hi, just wanted to vent about not finding ideal position

Hi. As I explained before, I'm the older 2nd degree BSN graduate who graduated in Dec 08, and passed boards in Jan '09. I accepted a job in a Medicine unit almost a week after I passed boards. I was actually hoping to get another job in another hospital, but since this job was there, I accepted the job offer. Well, regretfully, they told me that as of 4/10, I couldn't handle the load effectively enough after 4 weeks. They said the orientation was only 6 weeks. Well, I was given a month to find a new job within that system. I haven't really found it. I was actually hoping against hope that I would be accepted in a Telemetery position at another hospital (heard they treated nurses better there), which just happened to have my mom's friend in the same unit. She said she put in a good word for me, but I found out from the HR recruiter that that manager was thinking about wrapping up interviews this week, and if I haven't heard anything then, it's not a good sign. She said look to see if she would set up for an interview next week, but personally, I'm not counting on it.

Well, I consulted this part-time nurse in the system I'm still technically in who's been a nurse for 30 years who btw evaluated me on behalf of my manager, and she said why don't I come to her hospital, which btw is in the same system that I'm still in. She said her recommendation before was for me to either be transferred to a slower paced unit or to have more orientation. According to her, the Medicine units at her hospital are 12 weeks! What the f*! I wish she told me this a month ago. Well, I went ahead and applied internally to 4 positions in Medicine units at her hospital and another unit (Same Day Surgery) at another hospital.

Overall, I felt lucky that I was able to access this. When I looked at the regular list of positions available outside of the hospital, these Medicine units were not available. I put down my reasoning for transferring as 8 hour shifts would be more conducive to my learning than 12 hour shifts. Trying to be more positive.

Kind of kicking myself in the butt that I wasn't more aggressive in applying for other positions; however, I'm starting to realize that it's only been 3 weeks, and I already applied to these 5 positions plus other positions elsewhere, so...what can I do? It's just really hard, because according to the hospital I'm technically employed at, and other the hospital I applied to before, they're accepting fewer applications. Plus, my nurse manager friend at the other hospital told me not to give up, because more people would be leaving, etc. and new wings are being built.

Kind of wishing I didn't apply to the position I'm currently at until 5/10, but at the same time, glad I had these opportunties to apply. I know there are others who haven't found their job until now. I have a husband who doesn't make enough money to support me and my little daughter, but at the same time, I do have my parents helping us. I just wish I wasn't in this situation.

Sorry, just venting looking for words of encouragement that it'll get better, because most of the other hospitals and positions are not accepting new grads. I was told to apply anyway even though this economy is so bad.

Thanks for listening!