Failed my nlcex 2011

I graduated from Oakland University on Dec 10, 2011, took my boards april 5 2011 failed my exam......the worst feeling in the world, got a DUI april 28,2011 at 3:00am in the morning, bought the kaplan course for $500 bucks the best thing i ever did in my life...did all the question trainer, all the Q banks answer and did not even review the book that comes with the course because i did not think i needed it....I took my boards again on july 21, 2011, i failed my nclex with 130 questions....this time for the 3 rd time...i bought the Priorization delegation book by lacharity, Pearson Vue Exam Cram book, and this time i did the video of content from the kaplan course online...went over the kaplan book like 10 times.....dealing with catching a case, debt, feeling like a failure, depression, fatigue, mad, envy, anger, and so on....one thing i always have in my heart is Jesus Christ.... December 6, 2011, one year after graduation... at 2pm i was supposed to take the test but i took the test early because the lady asked me if i wanted to start early and i said yes... walked to the computer at about 1:15pm...everything depends on this test to lift me up from external stimuli that was getting unbearable....the computer stopped at 75 questions......left at 3:10pm...from the testing center not caring if i failed because it already happen twice...got home...waited two hour until the sun went down.....try to reregister for the exam on the pearson vue website...and got the good pop-up...i think i passed the first two times the pearson vue trick took me to the credit card page and i failed.......the kaplan book is where it is at.....god bless all of you...i love you guys and girls... I am in shock to actually say that i am a RN 26 years old chaldean male who grew up on 7 mile and woodward.....and still did what needed to be done....LOVE and PEACE hopefully will increase among us...see you guys later.....

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