What Should I Do?

Hello! I am writing this post because I feel extremely discouraged and hopeless. I wanted to go into PA school but was rejected 2 years straight. Then I decided to go the nursing route because I did not want to let go of my dream to work with patients. I applied to ABSN programs over the past year because I already had a bachelor's degree in a science field. I also got rejected across the board. I used to be a failure in college until I got myself together and worked extremely hard to get good grades (3.8 GPA) and even did really well in the TEAS exam. But it feels like my past still wants to haunt me. What can I even do at this point? I am contemplating starting from scratch with an ADN program but as mother of two juggling work and a hectic home life and already with a large loan over my head redoing my bachelor's degree, I don't even know if it will be worth it. What do you guys recommend. Should I reapply to ABSN programs? Should I pay an admissions helper to help me work on my applications again? Should I just go for an associates and work my way up? I'm at a loss and extremely despondent. Please, any advice, would be appreciated. Thank you.