Tired (vent)--join in

[SlightlyMental_RN]

Hello fellow first-year nurses. I just wanted to take this time to do a little venting:

I'm tired of....

-Co-workers that make me feel like crap, make me feel un-wanted, make me doubt myself as being likeable

-Patients that only see me as a magic pill-dispenser

-working nights with 2 kids (It's hell on my almost-40 year-old body)

-Management that only threatens and belittles

-Telling my concerns to others (nurse manager comes to mind) but never having them addressed

-Feeling like all my nursing knowledge is slipping away, as I'm working in a specialized practice of chemical dependency detox

Please feel free to join in with your woes.

[nurseme3, LPN]

It is tough. The hardest part for me is the culture of gossip...and feeling judged my nurses who have been there a long time.

[SummerGarden, BSN, MSN, RN]

op: thank you for this thread!!! if you had not started it i was going to after this horrible week!!!

hopeful, i hear you! the word "new grad" is a curse word!!!! as a new rn we can never win!!!

if i do extraordinary things, most of the more experienced nurses think someone must have given me the knowledge or hinted or something other then the fact that after 1 year of working in acute care i actually have some experience and some instinct regarding patient care. or, on the other extreme, i have to deal with the gossip of some experienced nurses who think that if i make a mistake (not a major one mind you.. not one that can or has harmed a patient.. maybe i forgot to sign something...) i am completely incompetent in all aspects of my nursing care and do not warrant more critical patients or even start training to work with more critical patients! nope, maybe in another year after i have taken every class under the sun (mandatory)??? i am tired and angry!!!

btw, i do not think it will get better for me any time soon. one, the new nm is a jerk that simply hates new grads. so much so, that she convinced the don that no more new grads are to be hired onto our floor without 1 year acute care experience somewhere else. what does that mean for me? it means that those of us who were last hired as new grads are going to be "new grads" in the eyes of those at my place of work for some time to come! the last place i worked having many new grads on my floor helped to make me a more experienced nurse. now i will be a newbie forever if i stay! this is why i do not plan to remain where i am working too much longer past my rn-bsn graduation date at the end of this year.

my plan is to join the army. if that fails i am going to find a travel gig and/or work some place else. there is no way i will continue to be treated like a new grad forever, where my career growth is limited by the minds of others!