Second wind

[EDNURSE20, BSN]

So something strange has happened. I’m happy!

I’ve been working in ED for almost two years. I had instant regret when I changed jobs, never particularly liked it. Around august I decided it was finally time to leave. I hated my job, I dreaded going, I felt like I was always angry, and was “burnt out” had no energy. Just slept all day.

I Felt like I was having a life crisis. Didn’t know what to do next after being turned down for 5 jobs. I had only had 2 job interview previously, which I got offered the job on the spot. My new grad job and ED. 

but lately I’ve found I’m happy. I’m comfortable at work, maybe even enjoying it. I’m doing stuff on my days off, and full of energy. I havent been on all nurses for weeks now. Im even making career plans which means I’ll have to stay at my job longer! 

I don’t know what’s happened. Nothings changed. Chronically understaffed, overworked, with some crappy managers. I had a week off, but I don’t think that’s enough for this major change. It’s like I have a second wind, of nursing in general. I don’t know how long it will last. But feels good not to be so angry. All. The. Time.