the second time 12/30

Hello,

I just want to talk about my experience to vent a little. This is my second time taking the exam. The first time, I got 184 questions and I used up the full 5 hours!!! This time, I got 75 questions. I felt that I did worse this time. I got the so many easy questions wrong. They weren't even analysis/critical thinking questions. I know that I got them wrong because I looked them up after the exam. I really don't want to fail again. I have been out of school for about 7 months now and I am still not working as an RN yet. Almost everyone passed it in my class the first time (except for me and another person, she passed it on her second try). I don't want to have to take it again for the third time.

After failing the first one, I took Kaplan and I also have their strategy book (you can purchase it from Borders). I thought that I would be prepared this time around. I thought that I was not too nervous either. But the questions were so hard. They seemed impossible to answer. I don't know what else I can do if I don't pass it this time. I feel like I am wasting my life waiting for another 91 days.

But on a good note, I can say that I am glad that I didn't pass it for the first time. Weird huh? Well, it is because before the first exam, I was hired for a RN job. When I found out the I failed it, I told the nurse manager on the unit of my result. She was very unsympathetic and cold to me. She told me to apply to other units when I pass the Board, which means, DON'T APPLY HERE AGAIN! So, I felt that it was good that I didn't pass. I wouldn't want to work in the unit with such a mean nurse manager anyways. I thought that it was a blessing in disguise.

But who knows? If I don't pass this time, I guess it might also be another blessing. I will continue to have faith and keep praying. I will accept what God gives me.

Thank you for reading. I feel much better now. I will post my result when I find out. Please also pray for me.