Scared about nursing school.

[Etompkins]

I had a passion to do nursing and even in the hardest times i pushed through. I just finiahed my CNA course with an solid A. I loved what i did so i decided to become a caregiver. Being a caregiver threw me for a loop. I stayed exhausted, i was working 12 hours shifts while attending school. The agency called me even on my off days which were my class days. I worked eveyones shofts because they kept loosing people, but what had me rethinking nuraing as a career was taking care of men that would mention rape, or my physical appearance appropriately. I got saddened when I went back home to go to sleep for 6 hours then head back to work at 4 am in another city. Then id tell myself I cant be mad at a 90 year old man, but I felt so gross. I later got another client and I was her best caregiver., but she snapped on me so hard one day and decided to throw me out the house. I was understanding becuase she had dementia, but I sat in my car wondering if $7.45 an hour with no mileage was worth it. When i finally had more than 2 days off i had dropped so much weight and I didnt know how to socialize anymore and I lost the will to help other people in need.

I wanted to know if being an RN or an LVN/LPN bring this much stress and sadness. I honestly feel like I've been scarred and I dont find taking care of people exciting anymore. No sleep, no pay, and harassment.