Published Nov 10, 2008
carlasbizz
111 Posts
Hello Everyone,
I just don't know what to do anymore. I always seem to hit a road block when it comes to my education. I am in my last year of prenursing classes and I am suppose to apply to my program this winter. I don't know if it's going to happen. I have been in the hosptial for about a week. I had diverticulitis. I had a CT scan of my abdominal region and pelvic. I have three things that were wrong with me one of them being cysts on my right and left ovaries both about 5cm. I have Gall Stones and diverticulitis. I was hospital for about a week and missed all my exams and lectures. I was so upset about this. Boy, when I was in the hosptial I was so weak and exhausted. I know this is for the best that I take care of my health first. I even work @ a hosptial and my Nurse Manger terminated my employment over the phone. I have six kids to feed and I am a single mom. I don't seem to be heading down the right path. I have been @ this nursing thing for a long time and I haven't got there. Is this a sign that Nursing might not be for me. I don't know what to do anymore. I am so overwhelmed with my life. I don't want to give up but I feel like maybe it's not for me. How do you know if this is your right career path. I am not healthy!! How can I take care of others, when I have so much on my plate(LIFE) Please if someone can answer this or maybe someone went through the same situation. I feel like I am going around in circles. I had chem lab & lecture 5 times, when finding out I had to drop, because of my life situation. I wanted to go forward this quarter, but now since i have been in the hospital I had to drop classes. My kids also are not the supportive. I get no support from there dad. I drop last year because my mother died of cervical cancer I took care of her and would do it all over again. I just don't know anymore. I feel like I am failing for my family. I don't have a job now and my education has been delayed once again.
carluvscats
225 Posts
I'm so sorry you are going through the crapper right now. Single mom, 6 kids and health problems, and recently fired; I cannot imagine the stress you are feeling. >>>>
The thing is, as you go along in the nursing program, attendance expectations will only get more stringent. If you do not get your health in order and have to miss clinicals or preceptorship, you run the risk of having to drop out or getting kicked out. Then you'd have to start over, and some programs do not allow re-entry, or only allow it one time.
It sounds like you need a better support system.... do you have extended family, a church family, a group of friends or anyone who can help you during this time?
You are not a failure! You did not ask to be sick!
I'm saying a prayer for you now, that you will find the support you need, and that you will get direction for your life and your family. Please, please, please............ do not be too hard on yourself. :redpinkhe
I found a support system with this community on allnurses. Thank you so much for replying to my email. Yes I know the demand of nursing school. I know that life happens. I just don't know if I still should be pursing it @ school. I will complete my last of pre nursing classes this year. I just don't know. Thank you so much for the support. :redpinkhe Carla