Road Blocks

Hello Everyone,

I just don't know what to do anymore. I always seem to hit a road block when it comes to my education. I am in my last year of prenursing classes and I am suppose to apply to my program this winter. I don't know if it's going to happen. I have been in the hosptial for about a week. I had diverticulitis. I had a CT scan of my abdominal region and pelvic. I have three things that were wrong with me one of them being cysts on my right and left ovaries both about 5cm. I have Gall Stones and diverticulitis. I was hospital for about a week and missed all my exams and lectures. I was so upset about this. Boy, when I was in the hosptial I was so weak and exhausted. I know this is for the best that I take care of my health first. I even work @ a hosptial and my Nurse Manger terminated my employment over the phone. I have six kids to feed and I am a single mom. I don't seem to be heading down the right path. I have been @ this nursing thing for a long time and I haven't got there. Is this a sign that Nursing might not be for me. I don't know what to do anymore. I am so overwhelmed with my life. I don't want to give up but I feel like maybe it's not for me. How do you know if this is your right career path. I am not healthy!! How can I take care of others, when I have so much on my plate(LIFE) Please if someone can answer this or maybe someone went through the same situation. I feel like I am going around in circles. I had chem lab & lecture 5 times, when finding out I had to drop, because of my life situation. I wanted to go forward this quarter, but now since i have been in the hospital I had to drop classes. My kids also are not the supportive. I get no support from there dad. I drop last year because my mother died of cervical cancer I took care of her and would do it all over again. I just don't know anymore. I feel like I am failing for my family. I don't have a job now and my education has been delayed once again.