am i really for nursing?

hi all,

i am a 3rd sem practical nursing student. i am aware that i am good when i am in class but not in clinical. i can write essays,write tests,present, etc. but during clinical, i feel uncomfortable. i do not know what to do. if for example during the written test, there will be a scenario given, i could think all the possible intervention but when i got to clinical, im so dumb.

when i asked one of my colleages on how was their pt going, she said that oh i reposition my pt, i changed her dressing, i did my assessment(neuro assessment)..

when i also asked my other colleage, he said oh i bathe her by myself.

and when i asked myself, what did i do with my pt? nothing, just vitals and meds(if im allowed to give).

when my instructor asked me what assessment did u do to your pt, i said just VS and i auscultate the pt's chest and stomach. (and i dont even know if this assessment is appropriate with the client's condition). i just did that because i want to say something to my instructor.

my primary nurse commanded me that i have to reposition the pt every2hr and drain the catheter. i felt so stupid. like, they always say u should read the pt care summary(comp.chart).

i always do that but the thing is, i dont know where to find the task that i should do with the pt.

i can see myself that i have no leadership skills and cant work independently.sometimes im thinking of dropping the program.

(crying hard last night)

anyone?please help me. please please please :'(