205Qs i feel defeated

Hey guys just wanted to share my experince last week taking the NCLEX-PN . I went all the way to 205Qs, my eyes went blind and coundnt function anymore due to having that "that's it game over you're done please try again next time" moment. I left the testing center defeated like i just lost a war. I went ahaed and texted everyone that i failed because deep down and 100% sure i did fail.

Majority are SATA Qs and im horrible at those, it was endless. If it wasn't SATA it would be nursing conference or delegation and a few of Maternity stuff. I almost meltdown because i was not prepared. I was blaming myself the whole time well until now tho. It was my fault because i did not study enough.

I told my husband that i did fail and im not waiting for the official results, im going bck to studying. Heck i already paid pearson vue for the retake, and also that's an indication that i know i failed since it charged me $200.

i just felt like i let everyone down, i cant forgive myself for what happened. Seeing my husband makes my heart ache since he works very hard to provide for me and i cant even help him by passing this test.