melialea

First, let me start off by saying that I am negative only when it comes to my abilities. I really put myself down and don't think I'm good enough. Well I'll be graduating soon and I have no idea where to apply. I love Labor and Delivery. Babies. Moms. Women. Always have. Everyone's telling me to just do Med-Surg or Tele...and I don't want to, but I know I'll benefit from it. The problem is that I don't think I can do it....I doubt I'll be a competent nurse. My classmates seem way smarter than me. Idk how I made it this to be far honestly. I have been crying (on the inside) for months. People have been telling me to just forget Med-Surg and try to get into L&D. Some tell me that I'll be a better nurse if I start in Med-Surg. I just don't know. In clinical, I am safe, but I also have a nurse and an instructor making sure I don't harm a patient. What if I can't care for my patients as the only nurse? Is it normal to feel so incompetent? You guys, I literally have this huge lump in my throat at the thought of applying for jobs. I'm so worried I won't be good enough. I put myself down, then I want to just give up on Nursing completely. I do this to myself in most situations though, no matter the topic. My classmates answer questions faster than me. It takes me a while to think processes out. It feels like I'm not smart enough. Please help.