vvilla21

Hello I am a nursing student currently with a program that has levels 1-4. I am currently in level 2 although I have been having trouble with this level. I have been diagnosed with bipolar depression along with boarder line personality disorder. I started level 2 in the spring of 2016 and the stress was driving me crazy (although at this time I was not diagnosed with my disorder only with depression and was not on the correct medication). I asked my school for an incomplete and they granted it because I have a lot of suicidal thoughts. Now I am correctly medicated and feel completely balanced. I am in nursing school again now but I am having a hard time getting comfortable in the program. I am completely terrified of everything I can't stop thinking about how embarrassing it would be if I did something wrong. My fear of failing or looking like a complete idiot is making me think that I can't do this. I feel like everyone is looking at me and judging me, and I love nursing so so so much its all Ive ever wanted to do. I just can't stop feeling like I'm going to mess up or do something wrong its on overwhelming feeling like I am going to be a complete failure. I don't know what to do and I don't even know if I should continue nursing. If anyone has any advice for me I would really appreciate it. I just don't know what to do I can't stop feeling like because of my incomplete I'm not good enough any more and I feel like if I do anything wrong everyone will judge me. please give me some advice i know I should care what anyone thinks but I can't stop my self I've been trying but its all that is on my mind.