Ruadhan

I am a 33 year old with a BA in English and an MS in library science. My librarian career failed to launch because of the economic recession which began in 2008/2009 when I got my library degree. I have done various nonprofessional jobs since then and have struggled off and on with major depression, which is finally being resolved with the right medication. I have been considering RN nursing and am currently shadowing in several departments (med-surg, radiology, OR, medical records, currently asking for permission to shadow in ICU) at a local community hospital where my mother works as a locum tenens CRNA in the OR. So far, I really like the OR and the CRNA side of the OR and med-surg. Anyway, I am not sure yet if nursing is the right field for me or not. I do enjoy being in the hospital and helping patients and it is all very interesting, but I am not a math or a sciences oriented person. I have always been talented at writing and editing and am currently doing some online freelance work in those areas. But I think mental health wise, it would be good to have a job outside of the house where I can accomplish things and would have coworkers to work and socialize with. My questions are: How do you know if nursing is right for you and you are right for nursing? How do you know if you have the right personality for nursing or do you find all kinds in nursing? I am a more introverted person usually. I was also reading about what you need to be an ICU nurse and it sounds like you need to have a strong, assertive personality, which I don't think I have. Also, how do you figure out which nursing specialty is right for you? I'm thinking about CRNA since I've been exposed to that, but that would require me getting a BSN, then at least a year of critical care experience, then 2 years of CRNA school and I'm already 33. It just makes me feel too old to start over, but I know I can't keep going this way. I've seen people die and I've been exposed to blood. I used to be an EMT for a bit in college. So I think I can handle the blood and guts and such. But I don't know about the stress and the science and all that. Any advice you can give would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!