Suzyq85

Hello, I'm in my first semester of college and I'm aspiring to be a nurse. I haven't figured out which kind yet. I was really interested in L&D, but I was reading how chaotic it can be and how you have to work well under pressure in that field. I like fast-paced sometimes. I like being busy, a rush, anything like that. But I know myself and no matter how much I like it, I know I can't think under pressure! My mind freezes up and I can't think clearly or focus. I'm also not good at multitasking, unless I have a list. I have a really bad memory so my attention span is minute. Once something is out of my sight, its out of my mind unless I have it written on a list. I have an anxiety disorder which probably contributes to all of that, and it makes me wonder if I can even function as a nurse with it anyway.. So these traits of mine don't look good for the types of nursing that caught my attention, so far L&D and ER. I considered maybe trying to work in a small clinic setting instead of a hospital? But I feel like I'd end up bored with a routine. I can't stand doing the same thing everyday. I need some diversity in my career. I also need to be able to interact with patients. I lean more towards extroversion, and that's why I could never do a full-on, hide-away desk/office job, even though I'd be good at it. I really need to interact with people. I want to be a nurse mainly to help people. I really want to make a difference in people's lives..just help people. I'm a very caring, kind, and empathetic person. I'm a dedicated worker and can endure a lot, physically and emotionally. I've read a lot of those "what are good nurse traits?" posts on here and according to them, I'd otherwise make a good nurse, except for my lack of ability to work well under pressure and multitask. I know there's tons of nursing specialties I probably haven't even heard of. So there must be one where I'll be a good fit, where I can love my job and be happy doing it, and my anxiety won't hold me back. Is it possible for me to do well in a 'high-stress' field like L&D? Or can you tell me any fields of nursing where I might be a better fit? I appreciate your reading my post and any feedback :)