Leopold90

Anyyyone?

Hello everyone, Just joined the community in hopes of finding some support and advice now that I've reached an all time low in my life. (Sorry for typing my life story here, just felt good to get the whole thing out in writing. Skip to the second half for the meat and potatoes lol) I knew I wanted to be a nurse right out of highschool. I worked as a CNA so it took me a while to complete my prerequisites at community college but I did really well (4.0-in all prereqs. 3.8-overall) and although I was still a few classes away from an A.A I was accepted as a transfer student to a really competitive university's BSN program at age 22. Loooooong story short, I wasn't able to attend due to financial reasons. I wasn't receiving support from my family but they are wealthy and I still had to include their info for fasfa due to my age. After the roller coaster of all my hard work, being accepted, and then finding out I couldn't attend, I felt overwhelmingly defeated and lost. I attempted to finish my AA and got some Cs and failed one class twice (speech ugh.) So I gave up on school for a while and fell into a slump, depressed and feeling like I was giving up on my dreams. One day out of nowhere my grandmother told me that she wanted me to go back to school and she was willing to pay every cent so I wouldn't have to worry about loans or anything. I was ecstatic. However, those classes I had failed dropped my GPA to 3.4 and the University where I live required minimum 3.5. There are two community colleges and both had 2 year wait lists. At the time, I was unwilling to move because my boyfriend couldnt relocate and I was so anxious to just get started in nursing, that I went against my instincts and looked at for profit tech schools. I did a ton of research and picked a program that was promising (really just the lesser of evils in terms of private institutions) they were willing to accept my transfer prereqs and had decent stats for NCLEX pass rates and whatnot. I began classes august of last year at age 24. If I'm being REALLY honest, I realized my mistake choosing a for profit school pretty quickly. My professors were all super intelligent and sweet but few seemed like they were qualified to actually TEACH. Clinicals were great and i learned so much but my classes were constantly unstructured and confusing. I've also suffered a tragic loss of a family member and had a car accident that resulted in a TBI I had to recover from during the program. I slid by with Bs and Cs the first two semesters. And just found out that I officially failed my third semester, which consisted of med surg and psych nursing, with a 77% and 78% (80% to pass). School policy is 2 fails and you're out. So here I am. Out. 25 years old. Literally nothing to show for it. Back at square one. I've been in bed all day having a pity party, kicking myself for not listening to my instincts. I knew this was an environment which I wouldn't thrive in, yet I wanted it to work so badly that I tried to stick it out and wasted a year of my life and an exponential amount of money in the process. My family is so proud of me for the first time in a while and I'm so ashamed to admit that I've failed like this and wasted all the money they invested in me. Any advice on how to break the news to them? Also, what the eff do I do now? I've done the appeals and met with the dean at my current school . They have offered me a chance to start over from semester one of the program but I feel like I'll just be repeating the same mistake and wasting more money. I am willing to relocate now but pretty much all the community colleges I've looked at have long waiting lists and what reputable university is going to accept a tech school failure with a 3.4 GPA earned 6 years ago? I DO NOT want to give up but I am so miserable knowing that it will be a minimum of another year before I even get STARTED in another program. Has anyone had a similar experience? Do you think I should try something completely different and give up on my dreams? I'd rather not do an LPN program but has anyone failed RN and then made that work? I'm literally looking for anything you guys can offer in terms of advice, stories, ideas, annyything helpful will be so greatly appreciated. Thank you all for taking the time to read!!!