steph07

Hi all! I'm in need for some guidance.. Has anyone gotten cold feet or have you contemplated if nursing is for you while going through the program? I'm feeling a little discouraged at this point and I feel so alone. I'm on the edge of throwing in the towel. I figured I could find some people who have or could relate to me... This is my story.. I am a single mom of 3 so going to school alone is a challenging road. They are my motivation because I want to give them the best life I can. For the past 5 years I have worked on my pre reqs to fulfill my dream of becoming a nurse. I've definitely had some bumps in the road. I've had been in an emotionally abusive relationship that was hard to break free from since we had 3 children together but I finally got away from it. I had failed the TEAS at my first school of choice TWICE by one question each time. In the middle of transferring schools I had developed epilepsy. One day I just dropped and had a grand mal seizure then another a half hour later. After lots of tests that took a long time and several other episodes of seizures they finally diagnosed me with Adult Onset Epilepsy. Fortunately I have found a medication that has worked great and I have been seizure free for 3 years now! Yay!! After I felt healed enough I transferred and took the HESI and passed first time with good scores. I was admitted a year and a half later into their nursing program! It was one of the happiest moments I've had. I felt really proud of myself ������ I had a rough transition. The exams are very different then what I was used to so that was adjustment alone. I had failed my math calc exam by one question (you need a 90 to pass) but then got every question right the second time. I had to redo my catheter insertion check off because I broke sterile field but did good the second try and passed. I did the best I could despite having some bad personal issues that had happened half way through. After my final I had found out I failed the class by 0.4% (you must pass with an 80%) was completely devastated because of how close I was. I was readmitted and am about to restart my whole first semester which means I also have to repeat my clinicals and lab check offs as well. I'm trying SO hard to remain positive but I'm so exhausted and unmotivated because I have to redo the semester. I'm losing my confidence because the first time was very difficult for me. I completely understand that nursing is a very hard field to pursue. After all of the failures I've had so far I'm starting to question if nursing is for me. Am I getting cold feet? Or am I maybe thinking of giving up too easy? Am I focusing too much on the negative challenges I've had? I would love to hear some stories like mine to gain some encouragement and help me think positively about giving it a second shot or maybe find something to help me feel better with whatever decision I make. I'm very confused ������