paigecham

Hello all, I am posting because I need a little bit of help from anyone willing to give it. I was in nursing school about 2 years ago, and completed my first semester with flying colors. I loved the information, and was obsessed with pathophysiology. I was one of about 15 students to pass the first semester out of 40. But, second semester early on I got engaged and my fiance lived 8 hours away. The stress of our relationship not surviving nursing school plus long distance was a lot for me, coupled with a professor who was rather abusive. I practiced giving a catheter on a dummy about 100 times, and during the check off I contaminated my sterile field. The professor yelled at me in front of the whole class, and slammed her hands down on the dummy telling me how badly I'd messed up which I understood. But, I decided to quit after that so I withdrew from all of my classes and moved back home to my parents' house. Looking back now I realize that most likely I quit due to wanting to focus more on my fiance, and the professor yelling at me was just an excuse I used to make myself feel better. Fast forward to now, I moved to be closer to my fiance, changed my major to something completely different and have two more years until I graduate. But, I cannot stop thinking about nursing school. I miss studying from a book, knowing so much about medicine, problem solving with symptoms, and (dare I say it) making care plans?! My friends and fiance tell me that I talk about nursing school all of the time. But, I just don't know if I'm cut out for nursing. I only got through one semester and no clinicals, and I know I'm sensitive to smells, stitches, and vomiting. Going to nursing school would also add an extra year until graduation, totaling 8 years in school when I finally graduate. Anyone have any advice for a struggling student or can tell me what a day in the life of being a nurse is like? Thank you!