sykelovesnursing

Hi everyone! This is my first time posting on Allnurses but I have been reading posts from this community for a while now and appreciate the insight most can provide. A little background: I have my BA in Psychology (graduated in May) and due to multiple crises within the past few years concerning my mother's health- this profession spoke to me. I began a CNA course in NC in June to see if nursing would be a good fit for me. I have talked about being an RN for years and decided this would be a good point for me to make a solid decision about moving towards that. I picture myself as an RN and LOVE learning medical information, and especially sharing that/making it simpler to explain to others. The one unfortunate thing I have found from being in my CNA course is that I don't enjoy actually doing the "tasks". I know it sounds ridiculous but I am honestly terrified when my instructors (2 harsh women) criticize my every little move while completing a skill and I've broken down many times in the hallway or when returning home. I want to be an amazing/tough nurse, but I feel overwhelmed by a CNA course with check-offs.. I feel like I want to die when I have to perform in front of my class (which is relatively small), and soon I have 3 random skills to do in front of the instructors which decides whether I can do my clinical rotation or not. I feel miserable when I go home and I have considered not continuing I hate the extreme stress and pressure I feel... Does that mean I wouldn't succeed in an RN program? What calms you down? Thanks for your input!