nocturna

You are right. It is a test to see how much I want to be a nurse. I am still trying to see that for myself. My goal is to be working with patients and I am looking at other healthcare professions along with nursing. As much as it's easy to say my desire is to be a nurse. Because anyone can say it, but can they achieve it realistically? I think I need to know myself and my strengths and weaknesses.

@undertheoaktree, yes, I also thought my lack of experience also effected me. I have not done many jobs with multitasking. I've only had desk jobs. So I am lacking some experience in how to handle difficult situations on a fast paced environment. I see older adults in my program and they seem to be more experienced in handling difficult situations. It could be out of maturity and built on experience in how to adapt.

The point I'm trying to come across is that I failed clinical, that is my reality and my feelings toward it. I am not trying to change the situation because the event already happened. It was the instructor opinion but she deemed me as potentially unsafe. I am evaluating some of my strengths and weakness to determine whether I should try nursing school again. I see myself as someone who strives to improve and succeed but the fact that I worked hard throughout the semester and got this result makes me think about if nursing was really the profession for me. I ask some questions to myself, "Am I competent?" "What do I lack?" "How can I emotionally handle this for my patients?" I am passionate about helping my patients but feel conflicted whether I can achieve this goal through nursing. That is the main reason I seeked for some guidance.

I suppose that's the question I'm asking myself. I still want to be part of helping patients which I decided to go for nursing because nurses provides the patient care. Yet, I realize I do not necessarily have to be a nurse to help others. I am thinking whether I should try for a different healthcare profession which measures to my strengths and ability. I still admire the compassion, strength, and bravery nurses go through daily. It is not an easy job. I have found this the hard way, unfortunately.

I need some guidance. Sadly, I did not pass my Med-Surg 2. The clinical instructor failed me for clinical because of potential unsafe medication administration. While asking me questions, she felt that I did not catch unto the patient information and medication information fast enough to provide safe administration. She gave me an F for failing the entire course and clinical. I was heartbroken, upset, and angry but I understood why it came to be. I came into the BSN nursing programs with A's and B's in my pre-req and nursing courses. This is my first failure and I was shocked...I am a hardworking and determined student. I felt that this F do not define me. I was given the chance to retake the course but I was conflicted in the amount of stress, disappointment, and lack of confidence to succeed in the program. Then, I switched my major to the health science at the end of my junior year. I am a rising senior now. I would say I have "failed out" of nursing school since I did not re-take med-surg 2. I have heard students who go off to nursing school with their BS degree in health science. If I take this route, I do not know if I will be able to succeed if I go into nursing school again. I feel as though my confidence has been completely shattered from my past experience. Out of my experience, I can say that I had good experiences with the patients and nurses I've met on the floor. I've had only bad experiences with the clinical professor. However, I felt that nursing school was overall extremely stressful and many professors were less accommodating to student's needs. I have also realized there are other health professions that also involves patient-oriented focus such as physical therapy, occupational therapy, speech pathology, lab technician etc. Part of me wants to go into a different health profession and the other wants to take some time to gain enough experiences to give nursing school one more try in the future. However, again, I feel that this occurrence in Med surg 2 tells me I may not be competent to be a nurse. It's a very difficult decision for me because I came with the determination and motivation to succeed to this upsetting result. I have never imagined it would come to be this way. I would like to hear anyone's suggestion on this. I am 21 years old and I have some time to think about whether I should stick with nursing or go into something else.