freshoftheboat

Hello everyone, Not even two months ago my mom passed away suddenly. She was a major factor for me finally deciding to go into nursing school (I am currently finishing off an after-degree in nursing). My final preceptorship is in an ICU, which before any of this had happened, I was extremely excited about. Now, however, I feel numb and defeated.I do not know if these emotions are just because I am a newbie in a high acuity ICU or if its because of my current greif for my mom. I have only had 3 shifts in the ICU and I already feel that I am not learning fast enough. I am an honors student and I feel completely dumb after a shift. Has anyone here dealt with similar emotions of losing a parent/loved one and continuing on in their studies/nursing work? I am unsure as to how to cope with all of this. I have made an appointment with a grief counsellor with my university for this friday but I am wondering what else I can do. Much thanks