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I dont care anyone then. Because I'm just going to keep having another drink. And I'll stay home and wait forthem to call me. All my life rveryone always say oooo your not good enough well im not. I give up

Im not punking anyone I am not ok right now no ones cares

maybe coming to this site was mistake because I feel so sad right now

I am keeping the option open and applying to all jobs I can find. I used to be in charge of the other nurses in Assistedliving. I am good critically think on my toes at all times maybe if floor nursing doesn't work out I do case management. This is the back up plan for me now I have been thinking and I am not sitting here enjoying the time off they gave me. I don't want to be at home on a day off from work I am a responsible adult so I am going to go to work even though im suspended. My boss will see I want to change and fix things. I won't wven ask them to pay me but I will go in today and ask te nurses on duty if I can help them.

i started apply for homecare jobs, a lot of job description say supervising uap and case managing maybe that would be not as hard for me to do

thank you thank you it is vry nice to see comments that are good advice. I need to find a SNF that takes teaching seriously n doesn't bully people.

Ny typing is because I hate typing and im not good at it. I am not immature b/c of being bad at typing omg. I was very upset last night I literally crie myself to sleep. I had a drink of wine it made me say a lot of things I did not mean. I am sorry I was mean to some of you

They said at first they are going to give me icu but now psych. I am in my mid thirities so it's more expensive if they give me the hour

I called my boss to ask what is going to happen to me and she said she has a meeting with her bosses. If they were gnng to fire me they would have already. I am suspended and that doesnot mean fired it means I go back to work when they ask. If I am so bad at everything Like so many people here make me look out to be then they wouldnt have a meeting with all the administration to talk about me. I am gng to stay positive even though most you think im a horrible nurse I will prove you all wrong

i dont work in subacute right now I amlong term care. I give injections and oxygen treatment and PO pills. Mayb the rehab could be a fit forme thank you

I am on suspension a waiting to see if they give another chance. I have been drinking a little bit of wine to calm down. Thank for not being rude

Its that your pity full way of saying sorry? You are a liar yes you did say I would kill icu patient. It's in writing go look. I am a lot older then you I have wisdom and critical thought you dont you dare tell me how to be a better nurse and handle my stress after the hurtful words you said. I don't need to self diagnose myself with adhd to gain sympathy

Im sry I got defensive I wrote this here cause I'm crying my eyes out I thought someone else could give me good advice and say they went trough it too

she accused me of going into the icu and killing people

Mi already said 3 times I am responsible for mistakes but they are saying I am going tokill people and that i a bad nurse that is rude

No need to yell at me in caps. And theirs no need say that I will kill peopl. I don't. My goodness I see you are only 22 years old and not an RN. You are typical of night shift gal. I don't make excuses I gave further explanation and I am crying I got defensive. You make excuses go look at your own threads. I looked at YOUR user profile and saw topic you made about your 'Attention deficit disorder. ' that's not even real disease. Thats your make believe excuse for your incompetent

I don't understand why everyone is being so dang rude here. I am falling apart right now. I do have 3 year experience in assisted living I left and they begged me stay. I went to the hospital oriented and got per diem hours they give full time to new grads to save money. I never said that ICU is cakewalk!! But 18 patients is to much. Everyone cut corners in skilled LTC . But they hide it better

no the hospital is going to give me more hours when a position opens in icu.they only have one patient so it will be a lot easier

I will ask if I can switch to someone for night shift I will have more time to get things done and learn easier things.she is going to talk to me about a plan so I'll tell her I accept the responsibility and I will do ok on a slower pace on night shift

i know that I have a lot to work on and I am not going to make the mistakes again. But i think everyone is blowing it all up and im not that bad. I dont waste 15 minutes of people's time every evening that only happened once. She said she is not going to fire me so I will do better and prove it.

she said I am not fired.they gave the diabetic a snack for the ride she only had 2 units standing

I never said thats being night nurse is a slice of cake. But ur not as busy as me. U have 3 meds to give.the rest seems like technical stuff with the machines and charts. I can't do this without leaving a few things for night shift i am only 1 person. They aren't cliques because they have no support they are catty and never talk to me they go to my boss and complain all the time. How is someone supposed to learn if no one shows me anything or ever helps me

Hello I need advice I am in a terrible situation. I have been a RN for 3 years now just transitioned from hospital for a long term care position. It wasn't my choice but I am per-diem at the local hospital and couldn't get full time. I only work there one weekend a month but they keep hiring new grads instead of giving me more hours I started skilled LTC position 2 months ago evening shift. And it is not full time but 3 days a week and no weekends yet. I only got orientation for 2 weeks and it wasn't enough im afraid. Its too busy and Never slowed down at all. I get everything done really late and I don't have time to follow up on every single thing that day shift didn't do so then I give report to the night nurses and they give me attitude because I didn't get everything done. I don't understand because night shift isn't busy at all they don't do much so should that shift be the ones to follow up on left over stuff? They do not ever follow up on anything either. I feel like I am drowning and being a target. 2 of the night nurses went to my manager when I was just off orientation and said that I leave things out of report all the time and thats a lie. There was only one time that I left out information but I was honest. My boss said to me "even just the one time was dangerous." I think it was a honest mistake but not dangerous. It was a patient's endo appointment changed to be the next morning and I forgot to tell the night nurse to pass onto the day nurse. So the patients transport came and no one got the patient ready so the patient did not have time to eat and they are a diabetic. They got a snack to bring with them so they were ok. I apologized to my manager. I got a verbal warning for that and begun to do better but then a week later the same two nurses said to my manager that I always leave the cart a mess, that they find pills in the cart all the time. They told her they found 1 unused syringe with insulin in it that I signed for. I should not have signed before I gave it. I was going to give it but it got too late and I got sidetracked. and then the night nurse came and she wanted the cart keys. I said "I just have to finish something" and she insisted I give her the keys and said "last night I waited 15 minutes" My manager asked me if I am giving all of my medication or if I am just signing that I did. I told her I am giving everything and that I must have left refused pills in there. Then yesterday my manager called me and said that a patient who is AAOx3 told her that I gave all her 5pm pills with her 10pm pills. Yes I had to do that because there's not enough time!!! I have 18 patients!!! Maybe if they had more staff or made some of the 10pm pills to be given after 11pm the night nurses could give them and there would be more of a balance! I used to work nights as a sitter in the hospital before I was a nurse! It was so easy that it was boring. My manager is siding with the 2 other nurses and even my evening nurse coworker said its notright! These night nurses are a clique and if you make one angry they all hang up like its high school. We are going into the next schedule period and I called my manager and asked why I am not on the schedule and I am meeting with her tomorrow. I asked if I am fired and she said no so I don't know what this means. I am scared and I feel betrayed and horrified. Has anyone been through workplace bullying before?