.CJ.

I never said me failing out of nursing school is an indicator of God not caring about my wellbeing. I've just been questioning the path God wants me on and whether I'm supposed to "gain" or "learn something" from all of this whether I get through nursing school or not. I hope that makes sense. Just to be more clear, I've never believed God to be some sort of genie. That's not how I was raised to interpret the bible. There have been plenty of times when I've prayed for "good" things or prayed for God to relieve any kind of suffering me or my familiy/friends are going through, but my requests were not granted. And I don't hold any resentment towards God for that. I believe a lot of things happen for a reason. Whether it's to build strength, morale, etc. I'm not saying those Christians in Syria deserved to be persecuted, but we all have a specific time on this earth and it's up to us to carry out God's will however it's meant to be within that time. I don't think it's wrong to keep praying for guidance or fortune and that's what I've been doing. I have faith that God will take care of me despite what's going on in Syria or anything else you're saying to make me believe that God has no interest in how I'm able to make a living. Matthew 6:25-34 I was just hoping to gain more clarity regarding how valid my instructor's comments were. I believe God speaks to us through other people and I appreciate all the feedback so far. There seems to be a general theme within the comments and I've taken note of that. I'll take what my instructor says with a grain of salt. She's just one person who doesn't know me very well or what I'm capable of. I've only ever received encouragement from my other instructors.

I agree with some of what you said, but it's as if you're saying that you serve a God that doesn't care about your personal wellbeing or doesn't hand out blessings. If I were to go on to become a competent nurse, that would have a positive impact on my wellbeing as far as finances go, and I would like to believe God is concerned with that. It would just be a huge blessing from God to get through nursing school despite all the challenges that come with it. You're saying praying for that is futile or asking for any discernment regarding my livelihood is pointless? I don't know about you, but I believe in Mathew 21:22. It may or may not be in God's will for me to be a nurse but I do believe that as long as I have faith in him, he'll look out for my best interest.

It's not that I've been praying all along about whether nursing is for me. I've been praying a lot RECENTLY regarding this since I'm not currently passing in my med/surg course and I don't know if God brought me this far just to fail out. I don't know if this is all for a reason and whether I should take what my instructor said as a sign or what. And I wasn't too sure if i should address this to fellow students or actual working nurses so I decided to put it in both forums to get a variety of perspectives.

Funny thing is, this is exactly what most of my nursing school peers say about her. They think she's crazy because she often contradicts herself. But the thing is, I've been praying a lot about whether I'd be able to handle nursing. My grade in med/surg isn't passing, so I have to do exceptionally well on the final exam to have any chance at passing. I confided in her about this (she's my psychiatric clinical instructor by the way), and that's when she went on this whole spiel about how nursing may not even be for me and that I should do some soul searching to find out what my real passion is. If circumstances were different, I would take w hat she said with a grain of salt, but it's just the timing at which she said it that makes me wonder. I've been praying to God for clarity, and this might be it. I don't know..

So during one of my clinical evaluations, my instructor was telling me that she doesn't think nursing is for me because I don't seem enthusiastic enough and that it was as if I was always "playing catch up". She said that if I can't see myself doing nursing "for free" then I don't have enough of a passion for it. I'll admit, I am not in love with nursing school, but I'm not sure if that's enough to determine whether I'd be a good fit for the profession. Nursing is so versatile too, maybe I'd find my niche within it eventually? But I can't honestly say I'm in love with nursing. I think it's an okay fit for my personality, I don't mind taking care of people and nursing pays decently which is why I'm attracted to it. I guess it's more of a practical choice than a passion. But according to my instructor that's not enough. She's convinced that I wouldn't be a good fit. Do y'all agree with her? Has an instructor ever insinuated something similar to you? If so, how did you respond, did you keep going anyway? I feel so conflicted.

Yes I'm still eligible, my school has a 3-strike policy though so I have no room to fail another course from here on out. And you're totally right, I'm way in over my head. I just feel very discouraged and confused right now.

I appreciate you being realistic, that's what I love about this forum. Everyone tells it to you straight. I mentioned that my school allows for grade replacement so the Ds on my transcript won't count towards my GPA assuming I do much better the next time around. Only the 2nd grade counts. But the fact that the original grade is still visible is what makes me nervous even if I end up making As the next time around. What do you think regarding that?

I would consider being a nurse practitioner if becoming a crna was out of the question. That was my original plan but I've since then considered other options. I have huge respect for the nursing profession in general though, and being a floor nurse is rewarding enough but I would like to expand and advance in my education and areas of expertise at some point. I do like the autonomy that comes with being a crna and a NP as well.

So I was literally a few points away from passing Fundamentals and Pharmacology but I ended up failing them after making As and Bs on the last few exams. It's just that I got off on a really bad start at the beginning of the semester (had poor study habits) and I was also going through multiple personal crises. Either way, I'm sure it doesn't look good to an CRNA admissions committee that I failed two courses in the same semester, one of them being Pharmacology which is essential to the profession. I feel like a total failure. I would appreciate if anyone could realistically tell me if I still have a shot at being admitted into CRNA school or did I truly blow it? I do plan on retaking these courses and doing much better by the way and my school offers complete grade replacement. I can't help but feel like that's not enough.