Triddick

I have been a CNA for approximately 4 months. I consider myself to be a patient person with a sharp mind. I am taking prereqs currently at school to prepare for nursing. I currently work the night shift (10-6) at a LTC facility-- Today I was not very patient. I was frustrated with both external and internal stressors. I let it leak through and it affected patient care. I was more stern than normal. Telling residents they have to wait, short-tempered, and impatient. I was unable to answers lights for extended periods of time. My supervising nurse would not help and it is only us two in the night. I am at home now. I feel overwrought with guilt and shame for having been so brisk with the residents. I feel as if I have no business being in health care if I cannot compartmentalize and maintain integrity and professionalism. I'm scared I will have state and or the law on my head for abuse, at the very least a write up. I feel bad because we are the residents care givers, those able to help those unable. I feel as if I failed at my job. I feel like a terrible human. Any advice on how to deal with these situations? Any way to lessen the pain and help move on to be a better provider? How do you rectify mistakes with residents?