newbie9909

Thanks Boston. Nurse! At the end of the day right is right and wrong is wrong. ;-)

Where was I not humble? If by humble you mean take lateral abuse in the work place? Im not. ; )

Thanks for the advice everyone. I've talked to people I've needed to talk too.

Hello, I am new nurse (just finished last day of orientation) and I need some insight!!! ok so I have been on a stepdown unit which is connected to an icu. My orientation has been going fine. I've had tough preceptors (which I think helps) but non to the point where I feel like I couldnt ask questions. That is how I learn by asking questions. I know what I would do, but I like to run it by the nurse I am with while on orientation. Since my orientation I've had about 5-6 preceptors which is fine. I feel like I learned something from them all. The last week they put me on icu with a preceptor who was very cold, when I would ask a question her reply would be (You dont know that? You havent done that? ) if I had I wouldn't be asking!! (She knows im a new grad) We had a new admit, who was VERY sick. So she wanted me in the room while the patient arrived. Our other patient was very stable (could have been a medsurg pt) Once we were done helping our new admit (who eventually turned to a 1:1) after 2 hours. She asked me why I had not passed medications on our other patient, or tipped her urine. I was in the new admit room hanging her drips, IVs, and making sure she lived the entire time! I heard her in the hallway talking to the new nurse who was to take our other (Stable) patient how, it was so many things I didnt do. How she apologized on my behalf. WHAT?! I finished the night out. ...I felt like the learning environment was not conducive to me growing as a nurse. Especially right before I was to get off orientation. I felt confident and after a night with her, I was questioning everything. I know nights are going to be hard. And its expected. But when you have a seasoned nurse making you feel incompetent, its not helpful or productive. So I asked for a new preceptor to the clinical coordinator who has been working with the orientees. She explained that these things happen and that she would set me up with a preceptor. I say okay, feeling relieved. The next time I go to work. I am told that I am with the same preceptor and we have 3 pts on ICU. It was my last night of orientation, and I held my tongue, thought well I guess I will just have to deal with it. I started passing meds on my first pt. and his bp was was low. he had been in the lows 100s all day and than the last couple hours he was in the 90s. I took it twice, systolics in 80s and than 77/46. I asked my preceptor, do you think I should call the doctor. Because i know things are done differently on icu. (that dont call codes or rapids, they tend to it their selves, ((mind you i was hire for stepdown and not icu)) In response to my question: (Very harshly) she said Im not going to feed you the answer, .. I told her what I wanted to do and she said yes thats what I would do. I looked at my watch and realized I had 10 more hours of the attitude and decided against it. I asked the charge the nurse to be placed with someone else. They paired me with someone else who is equally as mean to orientees. I passed my meds, charted, got new orders for doctors. and asked if I could be sent home because I was not feeling well. I really wasnt feeling well at all (I would not lie). I previously asked not to be put with her and they put me with her anyway. I was being talked to if i was dumb and it was making me feel discombobulated. The next day Im called into the assistant managers office, told that I was going to marked as absent for that day. Said I putting up walls, because I shouldve told my preceptor face to face how I felt about her attitude. And that I was taking her actions the wrong way. ( Im not trying to make enemies!!) I just started crying in their office it was so embarrassing. Mind you this unit is short staff. And the nurse Im with, is seasoned. I didnt expect them to say anything to her. If thats her personality thats her personality. I just wanted to be assigned to another preceptor. Soooo I love the hospital. The first question I have is when transferring units in the same hospital do they always call your previously unit and ask for a referral. I can see them saying she puts up walls which I dont!! at all. I am very friendly. My other preceptor from ICU even sent me a friend request on FB. . I know everyone says stay on a unit for a 1yr. but whats the point if they are probably going to give me a bad referral? ANY ADVICE?