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I am a 21 year old nursing student, just finishing up my second year of nursing. I am starting to find that I do not enjoy the program as much as I thought I would. I have dedicated three years to this program so far and have at least 2 more to go until I graduate. I am starting to question why I came into the program in the first place. Now that I am a bit older, I realize things I didn't care about like the long hours and working holidays, are now not appealing to me. I would like to have a family eventually, that is very important to me so I am not okay with missing out on events for my career. I am scared that when I'm older I will develop bad joints and problems with my body that I don't want to have to deal with. I find school to be very overwhelming and I am losing friends during this program. I barely have free time for myself or my family. I can't even work a part time job without feeling the burden of school. I feel the stress won't end when I'm done school. I am a very sensitive person so when I see someone upset or going through a rough time I tend to become very emotional. I feel that in the event I were to lose a patient or work with a very severely ill patient I would have a difficult time handling this situation. On the other side, I do love helping people and caring for people. I came into nursing because I like being able to do even the smallest thing in attempt to make someone's day a little better. I just feel that the sacrifices I will have to make are not worth it for my happiness. I am very selfish in saying this, but I don't want to live my life with regret from this career choice. I am debating switching programs however I have switched one time already (I was previously in accounting) and will find it embarrassing to switch again, possibly back to my original program. There was no particular reason I had left, I just thought I would enjoy nursing more than I am. After dedicating three years of my life to nursing and over $25 000 I am having a hard time coming to terms with the idea of switching back. If I were to switch back, I would have more time for myself, work steadier work hours for family life but I would have 3-4 years of schooling that would cost another $30 000 left to complete. If I leave nursing, I would be unable to reenter the program without starting from the beginning again. Any opinions on this matter? TL;DR: Debating if nursing is the right choice for me, and if I am okay with wasting the $25,000 I put into the program to switch to accounting. The switch would take another $30 000 to complete and about 3-4 years.