I can sense your determination in getting everything done in the way you wanted it to be. You're very lucky coz the job inclined to your career is knocking towards you, and i guess you just have to remember a few words of wisdom: Not all in life is fair.... And, with the experience you shared with us, i think it's just part of the process of preparing you into becoming the best nurse you will be. Alot of windows are still open, so don't lose hope. These people around you, specially on this site are also doing the best that they can to reach their goals. You should, too. :) :) :)