prubio352

Hello. I am a 23 year old female. I am currently working at a med-surg floor. This is my first nursing job ever. I graduated back in August 2015.. I have been working for a couple of months now and I HATE my job. We have a load of about 7 patients, I am currently going through training. I have a load of 5-6 patients for now. I am working my way up to the total of 7. I hate hate my job. I have no idea what to do. I had to sign a contract for two years and a half when I started this job. Being a nurse is nothing like I had expected. I literally cry on my way to work every day. I feel so stressed, I have stopped talking to friends. I don't want to hang out with friends, all I do is basically sleep. I am so tired and stressed all the time. I truly don't know what to do. A load of 6 patients is too much for me, It's so difficult to know what is going on with every single patient. Patients calling left and right and the antibiotics seem to never end. I work the night shift and I usually get out at 830am. The WHOLE 13-14 hours I am running around. I never have time for lunch, I do not eat throughout the entire shift. I keep thinking that maybe I feel this way because I am fairly new and that it might get better with time, but I just don't see it getting better. I don't know what to do. I don't want to seem like I'm complaining over and over. I am just tired of crying to work everyday and dreading having to go into work. I have no idea what I can do since I have that contract, and I don't think they'll hire new nurses at a clinic. Please PLEASE PLEASE help. Any advice is truly appreciated. Please do not judge me, I am simply desperate. I feel like I am stuck and like no one understands what I am going through. What can I do?? Where could I even work? PLEASE anybody give me advice.