technonurse

Hello everyone. I need some help and advice. I just started a new job in the OR after a year and half in med-surg. I am currently in the 9th week of orientation with the first 4 weeks spent in classroom. My Preceptor seems to be getting frustrated with me. I am frist new RN they hired into ortho with no OR experience. My preceptor seems i am going to slow when passing instruments and not anticipating the surgery if i am not already passing the instruement to doctor without them asking for it even if its my frist time scrubbing in a case. The problem also is that when i see other people scrub techs and RN's passing instruements they are going slower then I am but preceptor likes to pass instruments like lighting and then gives me looks or says im slow if i dont pass insturments like her. She also makes me run around and do the job of both scrub and circulator and if i dont do both at the same time I get yelled at. I hard just being new at scrubbing but having me open up all the case carts and get and check all the supplies before srubbing then tell me I'm moving to slow does not seem fair, especially when no one else is set to the same standards. See also thinks that showing me or tell me the name of an insturment or procdure once is enough for me to remember it even if i dont see or hear it again till two weeks later. I learn by doing the same thing a few times but my memory does not in the fashion as she wants it to. I am getting very scared for my job because she is one of the older RNs their and good friends with the boss. I really respect her knowledge and experience but I feel I am having trouble getting her to understand what I need in order to learn. I tried speaking to her once when felt like she blew me off. Im not sure what to do. I will currently be starting to circulate soon and that phase of the orientation will go better. thank all for letting me vent.

Thank you all for the words and wisdom. Lately I am just trying to calm myself down and focus as much as I can on reviewing. Hopefull everything will be alright.

Hello everyone first time posting, but long time reader. I must say the nclex has got my anxiety level through the roof. Sometimes I sit and studying and then BAM I get a sudden feeling of terror. My test is on Oct 18th so I giving it all I got now. I know this sounds dumb but I'm more scared of the response by others if I fail then what I would feel if I failed. I know I can take the test again (but I am not planning on it). It's just the feeling that I let people down and now the people will be talking about how so and so failed and that feeling just freaks me out. I don't feel insecure but is just the thought that I gave people an excuse to say things about me. I not sure if I make any sense. My fiancé is also waiting for me to pass so that we could finally get married and that just another stressor. She's great and understanding and doesn't put stress on me but I would feel like such a loser if I couldn't give this to her. Plus this studying day in and day out with an endless ocean of facts and figures. It feels like theirs took much to know and enough memory in my head to store it. I'm ok with maslow and the ABC's of nursing so I feel I could get the prioritizing questions correct but once you start asking very specific questions on diseases that's when the trouble starts. Theirs just this big feeling of impending doom that is lurking over my head.