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Thank you KThurmond for the comment and advice

Hi Purple_roses, thank you for leaving a comment, yes I now take medication for anxiety, i appreciate the advice

I have been a CNA at two different LTC facilities. I had no experience working with resident along with my first ever night shift. i worked their 5 days in total. 4 days of training and 1 night by myself. I didn't use the gait belt i was given for many of the residents because the person who trained me didn't use it at all. I nearly dropped one of the residents when i helped them up. she did not fall and no injury occurred, i did report it. after that incident i was traumatized and i quit the next day. after a year of no job i decided i would give it one last shot before the certification expired. i worked a total of 7 days on night shift. 5 days of training and 2 days by myself. i did fine my first night but made a huge mistake my 2nd night by myself. the resident almost fell but luckily didn't. again i reported it to charge nurse. I went in for a third shift but had a panic attack realizing i had 26 residents and told the nurse i had to leave. i made sure someone was covering my hall. i quit a few days later. i did not give 2 week notices for either. i have never been reprimanded for these incidents but i have a hard time letting it go. I am currently a nursing student and will graduate this year. i have never hurt any of my patients in the hospital and have received a lot of good comments from professors and staff and patients, I'm just concerned i won't be able to hold a job once i do graduate? any advice or past experiences would help