It would be great if you could shadow a CNM or midwife to get a real idea of what it's like. Or at least like an OB/GYN just so you can see a live birth. I found that shadowing and volunteering opportunities really helped guide me towards my decision to become a CNM. From there you can maybe try to get some experience as a doula depending on your RN program schedule and intensity. In this day and age it may be better to do things on the cheaper side and start all your pre-reqs and beginning courses at a CC and then go to a university and complete what you need for a BSN degree, if that's possible. :)