Elizabeththa21

Hi guys/girls! I want to tell you guys about my situation. I really need to get it out and since there is a lot of RNs here, and people with experience I really felt that it was a good idea writing it here. I am 24 yr old. I graduated from high school at 17 but haven't graduated college yet (part time student) I've always known that I wanted to be in the healthcare field (at least that's what I thought). I graduated as a CNA and EMT. BUT....... I worked as a CNA and I liked it at first but after 6 months of being employed, I absolutely hated it. I was tired of nurses eating their young, I was tired of the company overworking us (sometimes 15 patients heavy weight), I was tired of my lower back pain when I couldn't even get up.. I got tired of people farting in my face, cleaning diarrhea 4 times to the same person, or vomit. I got tired of nurses blaming on the CNA on everything. Don't get me wrong, I always felt that I did a great job, I always treated my patients with 100%dignity and respect ,no matter what. I had co workers that would make faces and complain in front of the patients and I never fell into that. I always tried my best to keep it 100% professional. But, I just got so overwhelmed. And I felt that if only working 1 year I already feel overwhelmed (already quit). Then this career isn't for me right? I mean, I realize that CNA and RN are 2 different things. But also, seeing myself in a monotonous place, where routine and same thing happens every single day?? I got so bored, and no matter how many times I felt that I was doing a difference, it never mattered to the staff. This also applies for my coworkers. I got tired of giving 100% but still get screams from family members that you are not doing it right. When the company puts you 12-15 patients, and 2 showers, and dining room and expecting to do it by yourself (or if you have someone to help you, if you have luck). I got so tired of my employer to expect me to work a 16hr shift when they needed someone. But if you needed a day. Nop , sorry not possible. One time I worked 17hrs and they expect me to work 5 hrs later. I told them : Don't you guys give the next day off if you work 16 hours the day before. and they said: Oh sorry, we are understaffed. Not our problem. ALL this for 10 bucks an hour. That's absolutely ridiculous. Now, I am an EMT. Thank god I quit CNA I felt so relieved. I realy admire and respect all CNAs that have to deal with so much ******** for so many years, because they have a necessity. Luckily I don't and I got out as soon as I got my EMT. I really thought Nursing was for me, and I don't know if RN is anywhere close to this experience. But thanks to this experience, this is how I feel about it. Yes, I have my EMT license now, but... now I don't even know if I want to do healthcare anymore. I don't know what to do with my life, I am 24 and I am confused of what I want. I was thinking lawyer, the complete opposite!!! Is this normal? Is this a process?? Is nursing how I just described it.? Gosh I hope someone read the whole thing!! hahaha Happy holidays Thank you!