Rosebell

Hi everyone, I took my Nclex in September and failed with 130 questions bc I ran out of time and didnt get to finish. Than I took it for a second time in November and I was really sure I was ready yet I did worse than the first time. The system shut down on me on 75 questions and I failed it again. Now im super depressed, it has been 3 weeks and I thought by now I would feel better but I still feel depressed, down, without hopes and very sad. Ive never been this deppressed before, I havent even been able to start studying again bc everytime I think about Nclex I get more deppress. The first time i used Kaplan to study. The second time I did HURST twice and did the focus questions from kaplan and I did worse. I noticed when im taking the nclex I take too long per question even when I dont try to it takes me 3 hrs to answer 75 questions. Ive always had problems taking long exams but when I do kaplan I always do atleast 40 to 47 questions per hour and when Im taking Nclex I never seem to be able to do more than 20 to 25 questions per hour. I feel relax when Im taking the Nclex, but for some reason when I start taking this exam I feel like a retard like I forget everything I studied. When I get out of the exam I feel horrible bc of the stupid mystakes I made. Please help, any advice on how to best study to be able to answer this questions faster, and how can I get over my depression. I want to get back to studying to pass this exam, but every morning is a hassle to start a new day and just get up from bed of how depressed I feel.