beezwax404

Thanks so much for your replies. I really needed to hear that. After high school, 2002, I went to college for computer science, then switched to pre-radiology, then to health science, then finally joined the Army as a medic. After two deployments and some amazing experiences I left the army in 2012. Started slowly taking pre-reqs for nursing and met the woman of my dreams. I was diagnosed with PTSD and spent most of 2013 in a VA domicillary program for mental health. It really helped me even though I was afraid that it would interfere with my goal of becoming a nurse. Apparently it will not interfere. My ex gf stuck with me from having mental breakdowns, being homeless, getting back on my feet, getting my apartment back, getting back in school and finally being accepted to nursing school. I took all of her suggestions and when I finally start doing great and am on the road to success, accomplishing everything she always pushed me to do, she just leaves me out of nowhere....but enough of that...I just wanted you all to know where I was coming from. It just seems like im one of the oldest people in my class and the only one living at home. It really takes a hit on your social life...and I know I should delay the dating scene but without any friends here it gets lonely....and I was used to being around a girl all day that I was completely in love with. Hearing your alls replies has really put me in a better place mentally. I really needed to hear this tonight. Im in my first semester of nursing school after finishing my pre-reqs. I am barely passing Fundamentals and Pharm. I know its not good to make excuses but I was so depressed this quarter. It took every ounce of energy to force myself to do an assignment. I just felt like laying in bed and crying for at least a month. That time really took a toll on my grades. Even thought I have done great since then, I am hoping it is enough. We have to have a 78 average in each test/clinical/homework area in order to pass. we are only allowed to fail one class and then after that we are removed from the program. I have an 81 in fundamentals and an 80 in pharm. Our last exam is this Friday and then Finals are next week. Ill be wrecked if I fail out during my first semester. Then ill be living at my parents house, not in school, no job....I cant let that happen. Again, thank you all for your words of encouragement...I really needed to hear this tonight...really bad

To Augurey, Thank you for your response, I really needed to hear that. No I wasnt living with her when she suggested that. We had separate apartments. It just took me by surprise because one day she was talking about getting married and getting pregnant and literally the next day she lost interest and planned to move 45 minutes away....occasionally ill get an email from her telling me that she misses me but when I try to get her to meet up with me she just ignores me again.. I think the breakup has a lot to do with the depression. Its hard not to feel like failure being 31 and living like a 16 year old with your parents. I hope that your situation betters. You are a real survivor and I respect what you are doing. IThanks again for your reply...it really helped me out

Now, I know this is a real stupid thing to whine about but it has been bothering me so much and I have no friends around here and just need to vent. Basically, my girlfriend of three years urged me to move back in with my parents to attend nursing school (I just turned 31). So I took her advice d I moved back home 4 months ago when I began RN school and then she dumped me (which is very painful and an incredible blow to my self-esteem). All of my fellow nursing students are working/living on own or married. I am constantly lying and hiding the fact that I live at home. I feel ashamed that I am 31 and now living with my parents because it is the only way I can afford school. I can't even begin to try to date again because any woman would think it is pathetic that a 31 year old guy lives at home. Did any of you have experience living with your parents at an age similiar to mine while in nursing school? I know I sound like a real loser, but I just needed to vent today, even if no one reads this.