That's the strange thing about this is I've never had this much anxiety before. Granted I used to more about what people would think of me and it was coupled with depression. Over the past few years I've really been able to get it under control and I was pretty strong going into things. Maybe not strong, but not bad. I've had stress and its never made me like this, not even close. There's something about it that is getting to me like any other. A lot of it is care plans and the stress they cause. I have problems eating and I get heart palpations a lot now. I know that I probably need medication but the last time I tried a medication to help, it made me not have any motivation or care. Not to mention I wanted to sleep 24/7. I had to quit it I think about the 3rd month in. My mom just thinks I'm feeding into it and just trying to find an excuse to give up. I'm not because I don't want to stay in school any longer than I have to. Maybe because of all of the anxiety and the side effects of that, that I'm starting to not like the medical field, why I feel sick at the thought of being a nurse. I hate that my attitude has change so much about this field. Over this winter break I'm going to be doing a lot of hard thinking about what I plan to do.