KNLB

Hello, all. I am in a BSN program and just finished my last clinical day. I am 1st semester. Still have finals&tests to go. Anyway- what I need advice on.....I feel as if I'm not retaining as much information as I should, I feel like I should already know alot more than what I do. For instance: My nurse, clinical instructor or fellow nursing student will mention something and I'll be like "what? Oh crap. I looked that up weeks ago but I don't remember." Or "we never learned that"...I feel as if I was supposed to come into nursing school with already alot of medical knowledge but the crappy courses I did in pre-red haven't prepared me in that way. Most of it waa so long ago and because i don't use that info I lose it. And I still make mistakes. This one day I forgot to check the Pt armband before meds, one day I forgot to clean an object before using it on the Pt, stuff like that. And making these mistakes really freak me out. When am I going to stop being "incompetent" and be able to do all of these beginning things(meds,shots,vitals) perfectly? I feel as if I will never know enough and I will all of a sudden be in third semester and something will happen and poof I'll be out. I know that's really negative thinking, I just am starting to feel very conflicted. I wish I had medical experience because I feel like im drowning with it being so fas pace. So sorry for the long message, I appreciate anybody reading all that and offering advice. (I know people say "you really have to want to be a nurse!" But the scary thing is, is everyone that goes through nursing school meant to be a nurse?)